i used to
suppress feelings
and keep them
bottled up
because facing them
was downright
torturous
but i have
kept them
down for so long
that i have forgotten
how to feel
at all
and i am comfortably numb
in the hiding spot that i have created
tucked away from
any complex feeling
but i can feel
whatever i pushed down
coming back up
and my muscles
are getting tense
the hairs on my neck
standing up
my senses
sharp
and i am prepared
to run
-n.c
