Poems of Honesty and Humility

Ashley Hates Me

Ashley Hates Me

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slit my throat

shut my eyes

I don't want to be alive tonight

there's nothing I can do to make it right

leave me here

to rest in peace

more like pieces

don't let me see

just tell a lie

to protect me from my own mind

I hate making you bleed but I can't stay quiet forever

best friends forever and ever

I'll just cut myself

so I won't harm you

let me stab me

and you be you

I'm in just as much pain if not more

don't pretend it's not true

don't slam the door

got daddy issues?

got bitches calling you out?

you're going to go cry like you do every time

and I'll have to be the one to ask why

I'll pick up the pieces and fake a smile

but that gets old after a while

I'm done being the strong one

I thought u should know

that this is the last time I freak over little things

next time I'll just go, I'll just explode

I'm going to blame myself like I always do

but this time I'm also going to go too

I need to go think and collect myself

cuz if not I'll just become ashes on a shelf

maybe it's my turn to make my own tattoos

I'm tired of failing at everything I do

next time I'll just zip my lips

I'm used to being quiet

I'm shy and I'm silent

I'm gay and I'm hidden

I know how to hold in my feelings

they made me know how

so I'll just hold my tongue now

goodbye goodbye

i hate being me alive

when I live like the idiot I am

I'm sorry, I'm just stupid.