Poems of Honesty and Humility

Alone (Wishing I Wasn't)

It's hard to breathe
And it's hard to keep going.

Going.

What's the point of pressing on
When everything that should be right is wrong
What's the point of holding on
When it's begging me to let go

Go.

I lie and say "ok"
Because I think it's the best thing to do
But I'm drowning in depression too

Ok.

I feel the walls building up
And I forgot to wear my good shoes.
When they asked if I ever felt this way
I forgot to say "I do".

I do.

Sinking and sinking
The edge is far from sight.
Blinking and blinking
Because everything is "all right".

Sinking.

The farther through the day,
The brighter the pain.
The less and less I say,
The more I want to rage.

Pain.

Just stop.
Just don't.
Just go.
Just don't.
Just leave.
Just don't.

Don't

"Drowning," I said.
"Drowning," I screamed.
But no one can hear what is already dead.
Muted that part of my head

Drowning.

Blank, blank, blank.
I lie.
More like a novel. It never ends.
I sigh.

Sigh.

Luring me away - my thoughts.
Shielding me from the pain - today.
Procrastinating my life away.

Luring.

Deeper and deeper I fall.
But I will stitch these lips
Because if I must fall
I am eager to do so alone.
Why so out of character?
I may never know.

Alone.