"You're probably walking down the aisle now, but I just had to tell you how much I wished you didn't go through this wedding. You don't have to do it. You can choose your own happiness instead of sacrificing it for him. "
"If you ever want to talk...
"Heeey, where is my beautiful little girl?" my mom asked with joy in her voice as she was sneaking into my dressing room.
I was putting on my veil and doing some finishing touches before I could call my dad to take me down the aisle. You got that, it was my wedding day. The happiest day in a life of a woman. Or so they say it should be.
"Hi mom. Just touching up a bit, I'll be ready in a minute" I looked her over my shoulder as I was adjusting the veil to my hair.
"Here, let me help you. Don't rush it, or you'll ruin that gorgeous bun" my mom took the veil and pinned it in place letting it fall slowly down my back, and slightly touch my shoulders.
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I was looking myself in the mirror while she took care of my hairstyle and veil and I couldn't help but feel a huge pit in my stomach, which made me take a deep breath and cross my fingers with each other.
"So, how are you feeling" my mom asked me as she patted my shoulders slightly, standing behind me and looking me in the mirror. It's like she knew something was wrong.
"Fine" I said, nodded and smiled slightly as I looked down at my wedding dress. It was a gorgeous lace wedding gown, with long sleeves. It had a v-neck and it was really long, sine I was 5′8′'.
"Fine? Nicole, it's your wedding day, and you feel fine?" now my mom was worried. She pulled my arm so I would face her and I took another sigh.
"Yeah... well, you know... I feel good, it's all normal I'm sure" I tried to convince her I was OK, but I could never lie to my mom. Lord knows I tried many times, for silly things of course, but she could always tell when I lied to her.
"No, it's not normal to feel fine on your wedding day. You should be ecstatic, overwhelmed, excited, jumping off the ground... you know crazy happy" she took me by the hand and rubbed her thumb over the back of my hand "and you don't feel nothing like that do you?"
I was silent for a while then I took a deep breath and finally spoke
"No. I don't. And it's killing me inside, because I feel like I've been lying to everyone, especially myself. But on the other hand I didn't really. I really loved Lucas I just..."
"Hold on..." my mom interrupted me "...did you just say loved? As in past tense? As in you don't love him anymore?" her eyes widened and she was in shock.
I just nodded my head and looked at her with a sad face, while my eyes started to tear up a little. I quickly started waving my hands in front of my eyes to stop the tears from coming down my face. The last thing I needed now was to ruin my make-up. But then again, I'm supposed to marry the man I no longer love the same way I used to, so why should I even care about ruining my make-up when I'm about to ruin my life.
"Huh..." she was baffled "Well.... um... that's... khm... I don't..." poor woman couldn't even form a sentence while she was pacing through the room, trying to wrap her head around the thought that her daughter probably doesn't want to get married today.
