A Love To Remember

Chapter 44: Thank You

Chiara

Hindi na ako nag-abala pang pumasok sa school ngayong araw na 'to, I locked myself inside my room and as usual, umiyak naman ako. I lost all my energy earlier.

I never thought, nor imagined, na ganto pala kasakit ang lahat ng ito. They're right, nasa huli talaga ang pagsisi.

"Chiara? Are you okay?" I heard someone yelled outside my room, how I wish na it's Lea but it isn't, based on her voice, it's Alysse.

Uminom muna ako ng tubig before answering her, "Not feeling well but I'm fine!" pasigaw na sagot ko, kanina pa ako kinakatok nito and seriously? If she really want to check me, she could've use the key para mabuksan ang pinto, duh. Tanga kasi.

"Are you sure? Aalis na kami nina Mommy at Daddy, just go downstairs if you need anything." aniya, napairap naman ako dahil dun.

Mabuti pa siya, she get to addressed my own parents as her Mom and Dad. ako kaya, kailan ko silang matatawag ng gano'n?

I sighed in frustration as I blow some strands of hair covering my face. Honestly, everytime I cry, pumapasok sa utak ko ang imahe ng blade, killing myself is always the first option sa lahat ng problema ko sa buhay but, not this time. I can't die ng hindi niya ako napapatawad, hindi ako pwedeng mamatay, they still need to know the truth and I know someday.. matatapos rin ang lahat ng 'to and that, I can experience to be part of a happy family for once.

Tsaka isa pa, I don't think na blade ang makakapatay sa' kin, may isa pa akong problema.

I looked down as I unbutton my uniform, leaving my sando behind. Tinaas ko ang dulo nito, revealing my tummy na mayroong napaka-raming pasa. Hindi lang sa braso ko ako nagka-pasa, I have some in my tummy, mayroon din sa paa ko and I don't know where did I get these bruises. It hurts and it's aching so bad all the time.

Seriously, nagsle-sleep walk ba ako habang natutulog and beyond my knowledge, sinasaktan ko na pala ang sarili ko?

But, that's impossible. May sakit ba ako or what? Really? Sobrang parusa naman ata ito, hindi na nga ako kilala ng sarili kong Ina, magkakasakit pa ako.

I want to tell Dad about this, or even Tita Kate pero huwag na. Time will heal, right? Magiging okay rin ako and besides.. I don't want to consult a doctor, I'm a scaredy cat at natatakot ako sa mga pwede kong malaman.

Napapitlag ako when my phone vibrated kaya binaba ko na ang sando ko as I picked it up without even bothering to see who it was.

"Chiara, darling?" parang nanlamig ako dahil sa narinig mula sa kabilang linya. It's her.. Mommy, or should I say, Clara.

Gusto ko siyang sigawan. Gusto ko siyang murahin but I kept myself calm and composed, kabilin-bilinan ni Tita Analaine na dapat, hindi ako magpahalata na may alam ako. She's still thinking a way kung paano mahuhuli si Mommy sa lahat ng mga nagawa niya, she's still gathering evidences kaya for now, I must act naturally while talking to this mad woman.

"Mommy, I'm glad you called! I miss you na po!" wika ko, making my voice sound jollier as ever.

"Well, I called to check kung ano na ang ganap d'yan. How's it? Kamusta na ang mga paghihirap na ginagawa mo kay Lea?" she asked while giggling. Paghihirap? As if, ako nga 'tong nahihirapan eh.

"Of course, everything is great Mommy! Don't worry, I assure you po, sooner or later, she'll give up." I said and for the love of God, I don't mean it, okay?

"Good, that's my girl." she exclaimed and really, I can imagine her smiling mischievously right now. Ugh.

"Eh Mom, what's your next step ba? Mind sharing it?" I asked. Again, may benefit rin pala ang pagiging magaling ko when it comes to the field of acting, ano?