«Now it's just me and I lie awake. And I toss and I turn and I see your face, when I wake from a dream it won't go away. Oh, it's gonna be a long night.» -Long night. With Confidence.
I was happy. I trained hard. I wanted him to see my best all the time. I worked hard. I slept better. I ran a lot more. Some things weren't just meant to be. I discovered that after Nationals.
I was lonely at 4 Continents once again. I made a mess. I proved myself I was still a disaster.
I was scared.
He was not there.
We weren't nothing but I wanted his hug. We weren't nothing but two boys who kissed in a hotel room in Barcelona. I was nothing.
I was terrified.
Suddenly I didn't want to meet him.
He can't possibly love someone like me.
He definitely regrets that night.
Now he knows I'm a joke.
My phone announced he was calling but I didn't answer.
I wanted to forget he ever kissed me. I wanted the pain. I deserved it. He deserved better.
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A/N: this isn't me forcing them to suffer. Being insecure and anxious sucks. That's what I'm trying to portrait. I hope you know he's not just being dramatic.
Hope you liked it :)
p.s. also, where have you seen that song before? ;)
-H.
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