CONFESSIONS.

019 and 020.

So I have two confessions

As a kid, I was always confident in myself. I think most kids were. But, I was *different* ™. I was attracted to both boys and girls. When I started school, I slowly started to... isolate myself, start to hate myself and be sad in general. I would often contemplate suicide and self harm, but never do it. However, I had two great friends (although they didn't like each other that much) who supported me even if they didn't know what was going on. But later on they ditched me. Completely. After manipulating me and using me, they ditched me and I was alone. That's what made me even more sad and closed off. This continued until I approached my best friend. We became friends, she introduced me to a lot of people, I finally realised my sexuality, I became a bit happier. But, this brings me to my second confession

The best friend confessed to me. I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to ruin anything between us, and I didn't want to break her heart. So, I accepted her confession. We went on a few dates, and then she asked me to be her girlfriend. Again, I didn't know what to do so I accepted. I'm never affectionate, and she knows this, but she and my friends keep trying to make me affectionate, but they don't know anything. I am currently in a relationship that I don't want to be in and I don't know what to do. Thank you for reading and stuff idk

P.S: this is sad af soz

P.P.S: the first friends I told you about manipulated me a bit if that part was confusing to you