Mya's P.O.V.
"Cole stop the car before it catches on fire!" I yelled. and we came to a stop. I quickly got out of th car and ran into the woods. Cole hot on my heels. Within seconds of being outside of the car my whole body was engulfed in purple flames. It didn't burn just tingled and tickled. I stopped and looked behind me in fear that I may have just started a fire. To my surprise I didn't. "You won't start fires or set things on fire just because you're on fire you have either throw it or want it to be set on fire." My wolf said. "Oh well at that's good to know." I replied. "You can set them while running too you just have to want to. Also to turn it off picture yourself normal and vise versa to turn it on." She advised. I did as she said and boom I was back to normal. "Will there be any more powers that will be happening soon like right now soon?" I asked and she replied. "I don't know but you will feel it's presence or when it will present itself." I mentally nodded and cut the link. "I don't think any more powers will be coming to me at the moment." I tell Cole. "I wasn't worried about your powers babe. I know you will always find away to control them quickly and I know you won't harm us intentionally." He says and I hug him. When finally make it back to the car I pull down the mirror and look at my eyes. This is definitely going to take some getting use to. I don't even know what Cole thinks about them yet. So far he avoids eye contact with me. Could that be a sign that he hates them? That thought makes me growl internally. If he loves me he'll have to love all of me. Right? Even as things change. Isn't that what a mate is suppose to do? "Why are you doubting our mate." My wolf says. "Yes don't you trust our beloved?" Anya chimed in. "It's not that but tell me why has he looked at me since or looked me in the eyes?" I exclaimed. "Well he can't exactly look at you right now he's driving!" Anya yells in the link. "I know that! I was talking about before on the way back to the car. Usually he will glance at me every now and then when we're walking this time no glance. When I did catch him staring he looked away!" I yell back. "You're being stupid he loves us." My wolf says joining the conversation again. "We'll see." I huff. "You're one to complain it was his birthday and you didn't get him anything at all!" My wolf screams. "Exactly but you doubt our beloved and mate saying and thinking he doesn't love us because he doesn't look at you pfft you don't exactly do anything to prove your love either all you do is bitch and complain." Anya excused. "Bitch and complain? I have feelings too what am I suppose to do ignore them?! I gave myself to him. I was a virgin for crying out loud!" All this arguing with my wolf and vampire is starting to do two things. Piss me off and give me a migraine. "He cares about you and you know it. Remove the tampon that you have permanently shoved up your snatch and realize it and fucking try to see things from his perspective would you." Anya said once more. "Yes you gave yourself to him big whoop that whore bag what's her face ummm Lisa could have done that. You didn't do anything else besides that special for his birthday. At least when he flips out you know it's because he cares. He doesn't know you care because you have like complaining bitch all the time saying that you love him will no longer be enough one day Mya. Then what? I won't lose my mate because of you. You need to be a better mate. Come on you did nothing for his birthday nothing at all. Sometimes just show hime you care don't just tell him show him that you love him in more than one way." My wolf says then cut the link. I have to admit what they've said was kind of true and it sunk in real deep. I wanted to cry but realized that would just worry Cole. I didn't want to do that. They were right I didn't do anything special. Even if me being a virgin at the time was good enough for him I should have went all out. I should have done alot of things. We pulled into a gated community. "We're here." He said pulling into the biggest house. I'm guessing it's the Alpha and Luna house. I get out and grab my bag. I wait for him by the door once he had unlocked it and open it he stepped aside letting me in. It didn't take us long to find anything. Eight bedrooms upstairs. Each room had it's own bathroom and walk in closet. It had a huge kitchen . Living room, dining room, game room, threater and gym. Cole and I even had a home office here but I can tell it wasn't meant to be the main office for this pack house well community. Once I was showered I began looking for Cole who I found in the office. He was so wrapped up into his thoughts he didn't see me enter the room nor did he feel my presence. I wonder what he is thinking about? I think towards him. Ha he didn't block it this time! I had to be quick because I didn't want him to know I was there. What I heard had me feeling worst than before. I'm so selfish. My mate loves this place more than Japanese Gardens but would stay there to make me happy. A house like this has always been his dream house. Something he wanted for a family. But he's willing to not live here to make me happy. As he thinks about me I see everything that he thinks. He thinks I'm strong, beautiful, caring, goofy,unique, smart, hilarious and kind. I see him smile at that. I can tell he loves all of me. But then he frowns at his last thought and that made me gasp. He doesn't think I feel the same way at times. In his mind right now he's thinking majority of the time. I quickly exited his mind and the room. I looked at my watch and saw that it was 3:15pm. "Let's see what I can find." I whispered to myself as I headed to the kitchen. I hope Cole's parents stocked up on food. I opened the cabinet. "Thank God." I said as I opened each cabinet in vampire speed. One of Cole's favorite types of foods would be Italian so tonight that's what I'm going to cook for him. Ricotta Gnocchi, Italian Cream Cheese and Ricotta Cheesecake, and Chicken Marsala. I quickly linked Cole and told him to take a nap but to wake up at 7:15 to get ready for dinner I told him casual but dressy. At first he didn't want to take a nap but then decided it was best I'm guessing he must have yawned or something. I called William and told him what I wanted to do he said we had a gazebo in the backyard as well as a glass table with chairs. I swear this made my life easier. The other good thing about it was there was a spell around it that kept bugs out. So yes my food wouldn't be tainted by bugs. Once I was done with the food I glance at my watch 6:28. Dammit I still have to set everything up. I found the cleaning supplies, candles and it's holders along with matches. I cleaned the table and threw the red table cloth over it, put the flowers I had delivered from the flower shop on the top. Roses red,white and blue. I down loaded more music as I got myself ready. One more glance at my watch 7:10 he should be waking up soon. I glance at myself in the mirror. I had on a black pencil skirt that stopped two inches above my knee and red cami. I paired it with my six inch heeled boots that I got from justfab.com awhile back. It kind of looked like office wear with a hint of I'm going out after work. I just wanted to look good for him. My hair was down and curled. I only wore eye shadow with eyeliner and lipgloss. I ran down stairs grabbed to plates put the food on both and cover them with the covers. I grabbed two whine glasses along with bottle of champagne. I sat the bucket that the champagne was in on the table along with the glasses then lit the candles. There were two on the table the rest were surrounding the inside of it giving it that glow. I even rose petals on the walk way leading to the gazebo. Walking back into the house I see Cole walking into the kitchen. Hey baby, where are we going?" He asked smiling. "Somewhere but nowhere." I simply replied. Out of all the moments and times now is when nervous decides it wants to show up. I mean I couldn't get nervous earlier! Maybe I was because I'm a sucky mate and my mate knows it and doesn't think I love him or care about him majority of the time. Maybe it was that if I do and or say something wrong tonight he could possibly think that for the rest of his life. It could be that he's looking damn good in his white button down shirt and dark was jeans with his hair all spiked like that. I don't know but I'm going with all the above. I walk over and link he arm with mine, "Follow me handsome-ness." I say and he chuckles. Ok I still had to be me while giving my mate a compliment. We walked out the back door and I think he was in awe with what I did I'm not sure because I did see him smile so I'm going to take that as an yes. We sat down and he was still smiling. "Be right back baby." I said and ran in vampire speed to the kitchen to get the food from the warmer. I ran back in vampire speed. "Told you I'd be back." I smiled and he laughed. I sat his plate down first he tried to take the cover ove but I tisked him. "I'll do it. Whaa laa!" I said said removing it . "This is my favorite how did you know?!" Oh wait until he sees the cheesecake. I smirked internally. I went over to my side with my plate and sat down. "Remember when we went to visit your grandma in Sicily?" I asked . "Yes. That was the best summer ever." He exclaimed. "Well she sort of insisted on me learning to make this and every other dish that summer." I said then took a bite of my food. He thought for a moment while eating his. "Is that why you kept disappearing when Justin and I would ask you to come play in the woods?" He took another bite. "Yes." I laughed. "Your grandma wouldn't take no for an answer. That's why I say she insisted but I do thank her because that's how I found my passion for cooking." He nodded in agreement. "Oh man what money would I have given to see you in the kitchen at fourteen years old." He laughed and I did too. "That's exactly why we kept it secret." He said back and thought for a moment more. "So you've known how to cook this the whole time and never told me?" He folded his arms. Dammit. Did I make him mad? "Yes." "Do you not realize I could have had you cooking me lunch instead of eating the school's bogus food the whole time." He threw his hands up dramatically. I started to crack the hell up at this point. "No way because if I cooked for you I would have had to cook for all of your friends too." "Touchè but at least I woulda had good food instead of blah food." He pouted. "I have no comment for that." I giggled. We finished up dinner. "That was beyond delicious baby thank you." He said and I smiled. "Awwwwwwww you're welcome but don't thank me just yet" I once again Vampire sped off into the kitchen to get the cheese cake and vampire sped back. "Miss me." I asked. "I don't know maybe." He joked and I laughed. I uncovered the cheesecake. "I think I'm in heaven pinch me." So I did not hard but on his butt. Hey he Didn't say where. He growled. "You said it not me." I stated innocently handing him a fork. I slid my chair next to his. "Shall we?" He asked. "We shall." I said and we clinked forks then dug in. As I took a bite of the cheese cake I noticed that I didn't pour him any champagne. Fuck! This whole time he didn't drink anything with dinner. I'm such a bad date. I sat my fork down and reached for the bottle but was stopped by Cole. I gave him a confused look. "Baby I don't drink champagne and I know you don't either." He said and right there I could have face palmed myself. I completely forgot that he hates it. Cole had drank champagne once accidentally and has never liked it. First time trying it and hating it. For fucking crying out loud how could I have forgotten that! Tears threatened to spill. I'm a bad mate. I wouldn't ruin this for him he seemed happy right now. I definitely didn't want him to feel my feelings through the mate bond so I blocked my emotions and thoughts. I was so pissed at my self. Cole was worried about him being a good mate when he should have been worried about me. Cole turned his head for a moment and a tear slide down my face I quickly wiped it away. thankful that he didn't see. "Mya?" He looked at me with concern. "Yes." "We should go inside it looks like it's about to rain." He said looking up at the sky and back at me. I stand up and we link arms and go back inside. We both get undressed and climb into bed. It's not long before I hear Cole's breathing become even. I walk out onto the balcony and cry. I cry because I have the best mate in the world, I cry because I'm deeply in love with him but he thinks else wise, I cry because I don't know if I will have him or lose him and that thought alone scares me. Sobs begin to rack my body. Then the rain comes as if it knows. I cry harder. What if the goddess decides to give him to somebody worthy of his love? The rain becomes more violent and then winds pick up. The balcony door slams against the window within seconds a worried Cole stands at the balcony, "Mya are you ok?!" He ask as he pulls me to he chest. "Yes Cole." He sighs. "For a moment I thought someone took you from me." He growled. I said nothing. "Why are you out here? " He asked extending me at arms length with confusion on his face. "I just wanted some air." I say and he crosses his arms. "Air? You know I know you're lying." He clinched his jaw. "I know. I'm sorry." I looked at the ground. "Well I'm waiting." He says . I try to tell him but can't exactly say hey I invaded your thoughts so now I know that you think I don't love you and on top that I'm a sucky mate but you know that oh and did I mention I read your thoughts when you told me one day you will share them with me when you're ready? "Find me when you're ready to tell the truth and hope I'll think it's the truth or willing to listen." He turned around and began walking back into the room. "I'm not good enough for you anyways." I mumbled leaning on the balcony. "Repeat that again?" He said this time he was right beside me. Dammit why did he have to get a vampire too? "Nothing." I say and he grabs me by my shoulders. "Repeat it." "It was nothing that insulted you. Can we please just drop it please?" He shook his head. "No." I sighed . "Why?" "Because I promised after our last fight to talk and hear things out that's why." I sighed once more he had a point but he'll be mad at me. "Fine lets talk." I grabbed him by the hand and lead him inside to the bed which we sat on. "Why were you outside in weather like this?" He asked.
