Black Ice 2: Fatal Mobs (KBTBB) Completed

Epilogue

(To understand what happened, read Chapter 22 of The Mob)

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I haven't been able to stop crying ever since I received the news. It's been days since I woke up. I'm back on a hospital bed and I don't know where Soryu was the first two days, all I knew was he is alive and recovering. Eisuke was here again in his place to keep me company and comfort me to the best of his abilities. The doctor said it was a miracle I was alive, due to all the injections in my system and the car crash. I'm alive and so is Soryu, but she isn't.

I lost the baby.

I lost Bella.

I lost a part of me.

Soryu lost a part of himself.

I was informed that the injections I received for weeks contained a chemical that slowly affected my pregnancy and health. Which made me throw up and develop a cough. And being hit multiple times during the car crash, my body rejected what wasn't supposed to be there anymore. The doctors estimated she died in the moment. In my heart, when I began feeling pain, I knew she wasn't going to make it.

Soryu has not left my side ever since he got here. And when he first looked at me in the bed, I saw in his eyes there was a part of him gone. He didn't have the sparkle in them as when I was pregnant. I couldn't help but cry and apologize before he even reached me. Eisuke took it as a sign and left the room to give us space. I never thought I'd see Soryu with teary eyes, and with his hair down, it made him look more vulnerable.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, Soryu." My voice trembled and my hands were shaking as tears rolled down my cheeks. "It's my fault we lost our daughter. It's my fault, I'm sorry." My hands covered my face as I began breaking down.

He shooked his head as he took a seat at the edge of the bed and drew me in his arms. "Don't apologize. It wasn't your fault," His hands held my head against him, resting his chin on top of it as I cried into him.

"I'm so sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. It's my fault, it's my fault," I kept saying over and over through tears, my heart wrenching in pain as Soryu tightened his arms around me. I felt a few tears falling on top of my head in the middle of my breakdown, and I knew for a fact that he was crying at the time because I heard him sniff up his tears.

We had stayed in each others embrace until I calmed down, which wasn't until a while later. Soryu even layed down next to me as I eventually began drifting into sleep.

I didn't eat the first few days. I couldn't. It reminded me of how happy Bella would move inside me, especially when it came to strawberries. They were my favorite craving. And they had strawberries on the side of the tray all the time.

I would breakdown after the nurse left once settling the tray and checking up on me and the machines connected to me. Soryu would only hold me and comfort me until I calmed down. He caught on why I would breakdown when it was time to eat, before I even explained to him.

I was supposed to stay only there for five days but ended up being checked up two days later for not eating. I was practically there for a week. I have trouble walking and was ordered to rest until I recover.

During the car ride to the hotel we're staying in Florida, it dawned to me. I felt empty. I looked down to only see a deflated stomach. I gained weight due to my body going through changes to work for one person now. I feel a lump form in my throat at the realization. I've been crying so much lately, I feel like I won't stop or recover from my loss. But at the same time, I don't have any energy or tears if that's possible. I lean against Soryu for comfort until we reach the hotel.