skinny love

three

Her. Beautiful. Dark hair. Electric eyes. Freckled face. She has the kind of beauty you know doesn't stop at the surface. It runs deep through her veins, entangled her bones and flesh. She's this amazing person I hardly know and I'm just Jimmy who skips classes and scares everybody to death on my motorcycle. I say it's just for fun but every time I arrive home at night. I feel disappointed I actually made it and I have to wake up the next morning. They say life could be worse at least you know who your dad is. Yeah but I wish I didn't. My dads a drunk who abuses people. Verbally, physically, emotionally. He was never there for me. He missed me coming into the world and he will miss me going out. The sad thing is, my moms still trying to save the marriage. The marriage that never really worked from the beginning. And maybe if they would've just made that decision I wouldn't have to be here today. Living a life I hate.
   But Ruby, she makes it all worth it. Even though we don't talk and we barely know each other, just seeing a glimpse of her or watching her racking her brain to figure out algebra or fidgeting with her camera makes me laugh and life gets better.