roommate

roomate [21]

chapter 21

jack's pov.

My vision was blurred- and no matter how much i tried to focus it i couldn't.

I chucked, the sound echoing in my head for what seemed like forever.

I wanted this. I want to feel numb, right? Yes. I need to forget about her.

Ali. Ali. Ali. Wasn't i supposed to be not thinking about her? Why is she the only thing coming to mind? Fuck.

I sway back and forth. I can't feel my feet touching the ground anymore, I cant feel my back on the couch anymore; I feel like I am floating, in a different universe even.

Ali. Ali. Ali. I need to fix things. What if she hates me? She's been gone for so long, what if she never comes back?

My thoughts sound like a speaker pounding in my head, filling my senses with awareness.

Suddenly I'm overcome with sadness. I want my baby back, why wont she come back? I crank my neck around to look at the small clock in the kitchen, squinting my eyes to do so. 8:47. It's only been 2 minutes since i smoked? What the fuck. 

My eyes start to feel droopy and no matter how hard I try to keep them open I fail, laying down and being absorbed by darkness, leaving all evidence of smoking out to see.

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