How Right It Is To Love You (JhoBea FF)

Fifteenth

Jho

I leaned forward to try getting a better look at this woman sleeping beside me. These past few days have been so toxic to the point na muntik na kong sumuko. But hearing those words from her gave me strength para kumapit pa. Bea loves me, she finally said it. Kahit hindi ako sigurado kung ano ba talagang meron kaming dalawa, as long as I know na mahal nya ako. I gently rubbed my thumb on her face and planted a kiss on her forehead. Then I whispered a prayer, sana sya na talaga; sana ako na.

Dahan-dahan na kong tumayo at pumuntang kitchen. Shoot, what am I gonna cook if there is nothing to cook. I grabbed my hoodie and fix myself. My jaw suddenly dropped the moment I opened the door. I saw Oliver na mabilis na dinampot ang maliit na papel na nasa harapan ng pintuan ko.

"What's that? What are you doing here?"

Sunud-sunod kong tanong dito.

"Hmm.. I wanna surprise Bea. Pero kanina pa ko doorbell ng doorbell, mukhang hindi pa gising e." he glanced at the door of Bea's unit. I noticed how shaky his voice is. Nakita nya na nakatingin ako sa papel na hawak nya.
"Then I saw this here. Para sayo ata?"

"Yeah, thanks." At agad kong kinuha ang papel na hawak nito. "Anyway, natutulog pa si Bea. Bibili ako ng food. You wanna join us for breakfast?"

Umiling naman agad si Oliver. "No, that's okay. Baka makaistorbo ako. Hehe. But thanks, Jho." 

I find Oli's actions different now. Before, he seemed to be friendly but now it's like he's avoiding me. 

"Oli, are you okay? May problema ka ba?"

He's just staring at me. Para siyang nag-iisip if he's gonna tell me what's on his mind right now. 

"Actually Jho, I wanna talk to Bea talaga. Siguro babalik na lang ako. I think we really need to talk." 

I think I know what he means, "Is this about me?"

"Sort of. You'll know soon.  For now, I really have to go. Bye Jho!" 

"Oli!"

Napalingon naman ulit siya. "I'm sorry." 

He smiled at me. "Jho, believe me. This is more than what you're thinking right now." Then he turned his back on me and walked away. 

Pumasok ulit ako sa loob to check the piece of paper he gave me. 

Ikaw, Ako at Siya

Alam mo ba kung gaano kasakit?
Yung makita kang masaya sa piling ng iba?

Napapatanong na lang ako kung bakit. 
Bakit kaya hindi lang ako;
Bakit kaya hindi na lang ako. 

Hindi ko alam kung biro lang ito
Na hindi lang pala dalawa ang pana ni kupido

This was exactly my feels yesterday but after Bea told me na mahal nya ako parang nawala lahat ng pagdadalawang isip ko. Sa ngayon, that is what keeps me holding on to this relationship. But if Bea is peacefully sleeping on my bed right now, who wrote this poem? Oliver? 

I snapped when I felt someone's arms hugged me from behind. "Good morning" she huskily whispered. 

"Morning." I closed my eyes and held her arms. What's important is you're now with me.

She's giving me quick kisses on my neck that made me laugh. "Beatriz, nakikiliti ako." 

"That's your punishment for not waking me up."