Life of a Kpop Idol

Chapter 20:W-What!?

Before you guys read this chapter I would just like to say that writing this was hard for me ,but in a sense that I miss writing I came back to write you guys the remaining chapters.But since in my book is fiction I want to make Jonghyun oppa alive in the remaining chapters.I hope you understand.
~Author Nim.

Y/N POV

|8 months Later|
Waking up for me lately has been an exhausting thing to do lately that I just want to stay in my bed room forever with my eyes closed, and for no one to bother me.

You know? No busy schedules,with photo shoots ,program appearances, dramas....(*deep sigh*) I don't know why but lately doing the job that I've been enjoying for the past six years has been starting to make me feel so ...so.. pressured to always have a perfect model to show kids who look up to me that I'm fine....but honestly I'm not.

I just want to talk to my unnie's but they're busy with their lives,I want to talk to my brothers but they're too busy to talk .Specially with Min ho oppa who went to the military.I wanted to talk to my parents but they're also always out of country.

I feel so lonely,and I feel like I'll be more of a burden to them If tell them what I'm feeling.I'll feel like I'll just end up wasting their time.

I wonder if (Sora) unnie is happy now to where ever she is ?...I wonder what would happen if I'd follow her?...

It's been 2 and a half years since she passed away, and it's been 2 years since I started to feel this way. Is this what she felt like? Lonely? Out of reach? That she's the only one suffering?!.

I'm angry at her because she didn't told me,I'm angry at her because she left me here hanging knowing that I won't have anyone else to bother.I'm angry at her for leaving me here all alone.

It hurts..right here ,I pointed to my heart as tears are spilling uncontrollably.If I ask her a question right now ....would she answer me? Would she say yes?will she agree if ask her that I want to join her where ever she is?

No Ones POV

Right now as Y/N is laying on her bed crying helplessly.Jisu and Ye-rin called each other for the pass couple of weeks and decided to call all of Y/N's relatives ,friends and colleagues,because lately ....
Jisu knowing Y/N more besides the other members ,know how much Y/N suffered after Sora's death and feel like she hasn't been the same maknae she has known in the beginning.

Jisu POV

Right now me,Ye-rin and my husband have been calling all of Y/N-ssi's relatives and friends whose she's close with.

I don't know why but I feel like Y/N changed. Not in a good way, I don't mean that she became mean and a cold hearted bitch or anything, but what I mean is that her smile ,her laugh and actions are all .... fake.Like she's not acting her self.I know this because I remember when Sora's news about her passing was spread and when we were in the her funeral,I didn't saw her cry and or shed a single tear.She was there comforting every single one of us, while we were all bawling all out eyes out.

I just hope that this surprise will cheer her up and maybe....just maybe see her once again show one of her brightest smile.

Ye-rin POV
Right now me and Jisu unnie ,her husband and my boyfriend,have been trying to find a way to get all of Y/N's favourite people to come and help us surprise her, because along with Jisu unnie I've also seen a lot of changes that had happened to Y/N after unnie's passing.

The people that are coming are:
Her parents
Her brothers
BTS
Seventeen
Exo
Monsta X
Got7
SHinee
Red Velvet
Apink
f(x)
More groups
And.......Manager Oppa!!!