My Prince 《Completed 》

Chapter 18: Lost

It was dark and either very late or very early. For a fraction of a second, I thought that there'd been yet another attack. Then I knew I was wrong because of the single word used to wake me.

"Hwa?" 

My back was to Jimin and it took me a moment to turn around. Right when I saw his face, in my head, I knew that there were things that needed to be set right between us. 

"Jimin, are you crazy??" I whispered.  

I turned on the small lamp on my bedside, I looked at the clock and it was past 4 in the morning. I saw Jimin smile as he saw the little paper crane on my nightstand. 

"You kept it," He said picking it up.

"Yeah, I was shocked when I found it. I couldn't bring myself to get rid of it." His face grew more and more hopeful. He then bent down to kiss me, but I quickly moved my face.

"No, you can't do that." He gave me a confused and sad expression. 

"Did I do something wrong?" He held on to my hand

"No,But right now things are difficult. Whatever we are right now, we can't be that here." 

"What do you mean?" He didn't like the way this conversation was going. 

"I'm here for Jungkook. I can't date you or whatever this is while I'm in the Exclusive." 

"So you lied to me when you said that you still love me,"  I could hear the anger in his voice. 

"No, this whole time that I was here, you've been in my heart. When you left me in the tree house, you crushed me." 

"Hwa, I said I-"

"Let me finish. That night when you walked away you took away my dreams, and the only reason why I'm here is because you forced me to sign up." He shook his head, irritated at the truth.

"I've been trying to put myself back together, and Jungkook really cares about me. He's been by my side comforting me and providing me with the things I need right now. You mean so much to me, you know you do. But I'm part of this now, and I'd be stupid if, after all the hard work, I just drop everything." 

"So you're choosing him over me?" he asked miserably.

"No, I'm choosing me." That was the truth at the core of everything.

I didn't know what I wanted yet, and I couldn't let myself be swayed by what was easy or what someone else thought was right. I had to give myself time to decide what was best for me.

"You know I'm not giving up, right?"  It was true that Jimin was not the type to admit defeat. 

"This really isn't a good place to try to fight for me."

"I'm not afraid of that crown" he scoffed. 

I felt guilty about how happy I felt seeing him worried about someone stealing me. 

"So, seeing how you are willing to stay, you must like him a little bit." I slowly nodded my head. 

"I do, maybe more than a little." He was quiet for a little bit. 

"I guess that means I'll have to fight harder than I thought," he said, heading for the hall. Then he turned and gave me another wink. "Goodnight, Lady Jae-Hwa." He walked out of the room. 

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I was laying, listening to the sound of Jungkook's heartbeat.  We were laying outside, looking at the stars.