bitter lies » hunlay [COMPLETED SEQUEL]

fifteen

yixing;

it hit me hard seeing sehun when the doctor showed me him with chanyeol, he looked madly sick and he seemed to be having a major headache. sehun saw me but he didn't seem to be that convinced and he just kept mumbling to himself.

"doctor..." i widened my eyes. "he needs your help!" i yelled.

chanyeol suddenly yelled sehun's name out loud. sehun didn't look so good, my heartbeat increased rapidly at the sight of oh sehun. i ran towards him because i couldn't stand seeing him suffering like that...i could feel the tears forming in my eyes.

sehun collapsed all of a sudden, his breathing decreasing. chanyeol yelled his name several times, but sehun didn't even move a muscle. chanyeol put an arm around sehun's waist to help him stand up. "doctor!" chanyeol husked.

i put sehun's arm around me without hesitating, giving chanyeol a bit of support from the body weight. it felt weird to feel sehun's touch after so long...i panted so hard and cried from the panic attack he gave me. the doctor called all the nurses to treat sehun.

they took him away from me.

they didn't let me see him for a while.

i waited outside the room, my hands shaking and my head spinning. i couldn't hear anything besides the voices in my head telling me that sehun's going to die soon. i shedded more tears than before silently. this is all my fault.

chanyeol went outside of the emergency room to see me with his arms crossed. "so, you came..." he said after the long awkward silence. "he's never happy without you."

"the doctor says he's having depression, almost losing his mind...i can't do anything about it." chanyeol told me. "but you can cure him, yixing."

"please, i really need to see him..." i wiped my tears away.

"you can come in whenever you're ready though...i understand how you feel." chanyeol said sympathetically. "but sehun's still under treatment inside. just wait."

"chanyeol, can i ask you something?" i leaned against the wall. he nodded. "i shouldn't feel this way towards him anymore, i thought i was over him. i tried to reject helping him, but i can't do it...im tired of feeling this way. i still care about him. why?"

"that means, you still have feelings for him." chanyeol said. "you know what? you're strong, yixing. you held on even when sehun broke your heart too many times." he brushed my shoulder. "you sacrifice yourself for him and i respect that."

"i don't want that to happen again, chanyeol..."

"i don't want us to start all over again."

-

"zhang yixing and park chanyeol. you can come in." the doctor said. i fell asleep waiting and chanyeol woke me up.

"are you ready?" chanyeol gave me a look. i nodded hesitatingly.

"remember, yixing. do whatever it takes for sehun to believe in you." the doctor adviced.

the doctor left the room to us three. sehun was peacefully laying down on the bed with his hands on his stomach. i was glad to hear the heartbeat monitor working, he's still alive. his eyes were closed and i was afraid to step closer but chanyeol encouraged me.

"sehun..." i muttered quietly. "why are you like this?"

i sighed and stood beside him, close enough to see his chest heaving. "you know, im not gonna be here any longer..."

"so please look at me like you used to and say that im real. im here to help you, sehun...im not gonna stay here, i can't. not after what you did to me..." i said. sehun flinched a bit but his eyes were still closed.