I didn't say I'd die without you.
I learned a long time ago
Not to do that.
I didn't say it.
Didn't want to sound "manipulative."
But I thought it.
And now,
4 months and 4 days without you,
It still feels like I was right.
I'm dead without you.
You gave me life I didn't know
I was missing.
Without you in my life
I don't have the heart
To take care of myself.
Everything is mechanical.
You wanted me to love you
With only part of me.
I can only love with all of me.
You called that toxic.
How is it toxic to love
Entirely and passionately?
It's the same as I loved you before.
Nothing was wrong with it then.
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Survive: Collected Poems
Poetry~WATTY'S 2019~ ~NOTICE~ AS OF 2/3/19, THIS COLLECTION HAS TOO MANY PARTS! READ VOLUME 2, THRIVE, OUT TODAY! On the pain, love, and passion that makes me human. Potential swearing, mentions of suicide, self harm, depression, rape, etc.
