Prose

No

One

Here's the cold, hard, stabbing truth.

You don't care enough.

And even if you did, it wouldn't hurt to show it. I'm tired of using beautiful words to describe you. I'm tired of trying to sound elegant and beautiful and I'm tired of you. I'm so tired of it, okay?

I'm tired of having to not use your name. I'm tired of having to watch you. I'm happy you're out of my life. Don't speak to me, God forbid I fall all over myself and fall for you again. You almost drove me to tears, how fucking pathetic is that? How pathetic am I to care about someone who has never cared about me? I'm tired of having my life revolve solely around you. Leave me alone. Just leave me to go out into the world without the thought of you and the anticipation and the dreams that you would do something for me today.

God dammit, no one ever loved me and it took me twenty months to notice.

Oblivious and stupid. You've topped yourself this time.

June 19, 2014 4:02pm