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"to know what it's like
to love somebody
the way i love you"
- new york city by the chainsmokers
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your pov
i flop myself onto my bed and stare at the ceiling. my bag lays at my feet and my head is throbbing.
i sit up as i remember how much work i have to do.
college is rough.
there's exams everyday and more work than you could ever imagine.
and being in this big city, it's terrifying.
NYU has been my dream school forever and when i got accepted, it was one of the best days of my life.
but moving to new york meant leaving behind home. leaving behind my friends, my family, and him.
colby and i met freshmen year of high school. i also met one of our mutual best friends sam that year. i've fallen in love with colby over these past 6 years.
he lives in california now with sam. they're both youtubers and they have a big fan base.
but a big fan base comes with a lot of drama and gossip. colby and i announced that we were dating about a year ago and i haven't stopped getting hate about it since then.
all of colbys fans "ship" him with every girl he's in the same room with. it's difficult to see, thinking of colby with a different girl.
we've been together for three years. thinking about it, it's actually pretty crazy. for two of those years i've been in college, yet we still make it work.
well, we try to make it work.
lately he's been a little distant i've noticed, but i'm not going to say anything. i don't want to be that crazy girlfriend who gets upset when he doesn't give me all of his attention 24/7.
maybe i should text him.
yes, i should text him.
i pull out my phone and open the messages app.
me
hey colbs:) thinking about you right now. i miss you tons. i need to come visit soon! this big city makes me feel so small sometimes. i hope you had a good day love<3
i press send and put my phone back down. i take out my laptop and start on the paper i have to write.
after about 10 minutes, i hear my phone buzz.
colbs
miss you too. gtg
my heart dropped when i saw that, but i try not to let it get to me. he's probably busy right now.
i feel my eyes get heavy and i start to doze off. i place my laptop beside me on my bed and i fall asleep before i know it.
*timeskip to 9:00 pm*
i'm woken up to the sound of my phone buzzing repeatedly.
i bring the screen to my face and see hundreds of twitter notifications and texts.
i open my phone to my texts and see messages from my roommate, christine.
christine
y/n! did you see snapchat? twitter? instagram?
christine
answer me!
christine
if you're asleep, WAKE UP
christine
check twitter
christine
i'll be home in an hour. we can talk then.
confused by what she was talking about, i went to twitter to find hundreds of direct messages and notifications.
