I, the Dragon. What to do now?

THE CAGE

I am sleeping lightly, without dream.  Fear is pouring inside every pore of my scales.  I fear now to dream. I fear or myself. SOB.  I think of every way to suicide possible but I fear to be punished to a worse condition. UNDEAD without redemption...for eternity.

The Alarm clock outside the room  is ringing 5 o'clock and like a conditioned boxer to Pavlov ring signal, I get up saying by reflex: "Ready Lord"

I was so tired I have not surfed the web several days from the meeting and I have followed my harsh training.

I have a veil now on my head and I look like Cleopatra with a Nil Crocodile snout . 

Even the animals in the cage are mocking me. "Drakonun here, Dragonun there, and so on..even Dragobitch...". even the snakes are hissing of laugh.

Half the day, I had to run around the zoo park with chrono, hundred of pump ups. Even so more kicks and the worse :

Father John has Sealed my darkness and mana : 

"BEAST, I reminder you to thanks GOD for his Mercy by letting you breathe.  Your pity-full Soul of a cry-baby must grow. And I call you by you name the day your soul will grow enough.  Now you are a BEAT and NUN candidate.

Do you know how to GROW a  soul?  By Redemption.

Redemption is not granted free. You must SUFFER in you flesh and mind to be granted redemption.  This is why now your cheat regeneration is sealed, your magic is sealed, except heal, partially sealed as you must pray to obtain divine grace.  Your base dragon powers are left because they are natural and prove you are an animal and not a devil. Your power will be unsealed when your heart will be in phase with the heart of JESUS, our LORD."

SssO I look at the water fountain reflextion to meet the image of a tumefied dragon with dry blood on the snout, a blue eye and a closed other eye due to punch.

He got me this asshole.

"What have you said?' Father John.

"Hiii, I'm sowwwryy, I'm sowrry. Bang, I am propelled against a concrete wall. 

A new Egyptian style sculpture of a dragon was embedded in the wall this day.

As it is midday, I was walking back to my place in the marina, more crawling back all bruised and swollen everywhere.

When I go there, crawling, there were unknown people in uniform with long sticks.  Some  have heavy rifle.

Heater was talking to a guy in a black tuxedo and a black mallet.

Heater: "I am sorry,  Daathrr, you must enter the cage here first.  I'll try to explain you when I can.   They are the new staff of the Zoo. they are state agents and federals. Please hurry or they will hurt you." looking at me with teary eyes.

In front of me was a big horrible steel cage, half rusted.  Inside was a big collar and smaller collars with heavy chains.  The base was rusted by organic waste .

This cage was not clean and each angle and bar have protruding steel teeth to protect the bars from torsion.  It is made if I bite the bar for forcing open, the small rusted points will tear the inside of my jaws, bleeding and infecting. HORRIBLE.

As I was hesitant to enter, due to Fear, a terrible electric shock ran all my spine and pain I've never had.  CRACK CRRRR.. the Bluetooth speaker EXPLODE with the electric charge.

Black guardian.  HOP In THE CAGE.  ANIMALS DON'T SPEAK. ALL your stuff, you don't need where you'll go. Animals have only water, meat, shit, and die.

As I was crawling with difficulties to the inside of the cage, a new electric discharge hit me.

"But I am a thunder dragon and electricity has to be a snack for me"

I ROAR : Father???? Help me?? Pity!!

Father John: "ENDURE, think of the Mercy and suffer for your Soul.  It will kick in some Humility and remind you of your place.  Be happy still breathing and don't forget  your old "Selfie." I know this is not right but I follow only the POPE instruction and the Lord will.  Next time I see you and don't want to have a cry-baby in front of me because then I'LL REALLY KILL YOU.  AMEN"

Then the cage close behing me with  a loud "CLANG"

Heater to black guardian :" Can I let the journal in the cage?? there is no straw inside.

"Yes, you can let it inside.  Now thank you for your service and go check your pay to the staff manager. He will make your papers as this place will be demolished by order of government

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