I Reincarnated in Otome Game but I Don't Care (Indefinitely Onhold)

For Jazzer

:Special Chapter :

Leticia x Jazzer

~Leticia Morphell~

I know that his gaze is not for me.

"Jazzer! Let's go."

To stay by his side even though I have no chance to be love by him.

"When will you let go?"
My brother who never leaves my side ask me everytime.

I just look down and shake my head.

He sigh alot these days.
And I am depriving him the chance to enjoy his school life.

I hate myself but I can't let go.

I just won't let go.

"What?" Jazzer ask me angrily.
Brother is helping the teacher.

I look down.

"You're always like that but your schemes are at the level yiu cannot be ignore." He snort and continue eating.

My heart is being torn pieces by pieces everytime I see him glare at me or ignore me.
And I know how much he hates me.
But even so....I won't let go of him.

"Seya is....very beautiful today too." He will often look at her from afar.
He will mutter his longing and his heart felt love.
And I will shrink even smaller.
I want him to be happy too.
But I won't let go of him.

"Are you sick?" I hope I can here a little concern about his voice but I know it's a wishful thinking.

"...I'm fine."

I'm fine.
I will be fine.
Because being without you is worst.
I will hold on.
Cling to you however you shake me off.
Because I love you.
Even though,this love turns to annoyance for you.

"What are you doing here alone?" Brother Andrew ask me.

Eh?

Where am I?
These past few days I've been sleep walking and ends up outside Jazzer's room.

Big brother look at my dirtied bare foot.His face is distorted with agony.
He cling and hug me.

"Please stop.I'm begging you,please stop." Hoarseness? Is he crying?

I shake my head.

"Lower your voice brother.Jazzer might wake up if we make a fuss outside his room." I softly whisper and I smile.

I know that he wilk never care but I will always care about him.
Because I love him.

"Hmm? Andrew is not here?"
One day,I went to Jazzer's room alone.I always did together with brother but he is sick.Or so he says but he is jusy mad because of my sleepwalking.
I am nervous.
Just walking alone with Jazzer.
I felt sorry that I'm grateful big brother is sick.

"If Andrew is not here we don't need to go to school together." He said and shut the door.

I look down and sigh.
Wishful thinking.
Ofcourse,without brother,he won't even have tp speak a word to me.
But I learn not to cry over these years.
I learn not to be startled too on how insignificant I am to him.
Because I love him.

"Eh.You are eating with us Today?" Prince Detrio look at Jazzer scornfully.
Jazzer just brush him off and smile brightly at Seya.
I felt bless to see his smile and ignore the fact that that smile is for the other girl.
I have to be happy about seeing it and not be sad about whom he showed it for.
I learn to adopt.

"Leticia, where is Andrew?" Seya ask me.

I ignore her.

"Are you still pretending you're fighting with the Crown Prince?" I look at her.
They both seat at different tabkes but the sitting arrangement is made that he and she can look at each other easily.
I envy them.
They love the people that love them.