jealous (jastin)

chapter 15: why?

"CHASE!!!!" I hear people yell while everything goes in slow motion for me. I still hold the gun in position while chase falls slowly on the ground while people try to catch him. 

i blink and see Rhiannon walking to me and grabbing the gun out off my hold. "Jason, why did you shot him?" I hear her ask but I keep staring at chase on the floor screaming while blood runs out off his body.

I know I need to feel guilty about this but the problem is is that I don't. I don't feel guilty that I shot him, he deserved it. he deserves to feel pain! he made Justin feel pain every single time! manipulating him, burning him! making him believe he deserved it!

"jason?" I hear another voice but I don't move only look one way. I haven't killed anyone in the last couple of days...

suddenly I see Justin sitting next to chase while helping to stop the bleeding, why didn't I hear him come downstairs?

i see that the bleeding has stopped. I still look at chase seeing the damage I've done. I shot him on his shoulder exactly where I wanted to shoot. he will survive it no matter what but it still hurts as a bitch!

not that I care he deserved it.

Justin stands up and stands right in front off me but I can't look away from chase. I don't know why.

"Jason! why did you do this!" I hear him shout and I want to reply that I did this for him. but nothing comes out, I can't even look away from chase.

I never shot someone from my own team before, at least not from my personal gang. my gang is big and around the whole world but I always have a personal team and I never shot any off them.

"jason?" I hear him again but softer. he grabs my chin and moves it to his face but my stare stays on chase. he's sitting up glaring at me but he's also sad and confused looking at me.

he stands up with Alex helping him. his wound is coffered with some stuff. it's neatly bandaged. I stare at it not believing it is coffered so quick. I didn't even saw it.

suddenly people are dragging me away but I don't pay attention very much. even though I don't look at chase anymore I keep staring but at nothing this time. it's weird I never felt this way before when I shot someone....

it wasn't even a shot that could kill anybody. I killed so much people old, young, girl, boy, family, homeless, baby's, pregnant women everything and I never felt bad, guilty, sad or any emotion like that. if it was in my way of getting something, I kill it. one way or another.

but this shot wasn't even meant for death, he didn't die, there wasn't even a chance he would die but still. I feel surprised, shocked that I did that. but it felt good, and if I had the choice now again, I would do the exact same thing cause he deserved that.

suddenly I feel my cheek stinging but it isn't irritating. wait a sec! Justin! he will hate me for this! I don't want him to hate me... I've just come so far he confessed that he feels something for me.

the day after tomorrow he's leaving to go back to his friends and Nina. I still don't know who the fuck Nina is! more people who want his love? he's mine, only mine. 

suddenly everything goes fast, I feel something on me. I jump and just like that I look around frantic to see I'm sitting on the couch with almost everyone staring at me and Justin sitting next to me. what? how?

I'm sure my eyes are as wide as they can be. I look down to see I'm, wet? why am I wet? 

"jason?" I hear Justin beside me making me turn my head to him while breathing heavy. why am I breathless.