Wrong Ties

Chapter Twelve

(Photo above is Lilith) This chapter is just about seeing things through Lilith's eyes and what she went through. Enjoy <3
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Lilith's pov:

Why do i put myself in a position where the guy i love runs to Cassie. I just don't see why!

I mean I've worked so hard to gain this body, it took a lot of vomiting and eating less. I wasn't always this beautiful, But Cassie she was always, she was natural. Her eyes, her body everything about her drove me fucking insane!

Yeah me and Cassie were really good friends, she was always so sweet and put me first in every situation except her doing that made people love her more. Sure i loved her too but it seemed like every guy i seem to fall for, fall for her.

It wasn't crazy enough that my own family didn't acknowledge me. They didn't care about my grades, my healt, my presence. They don't love me. My mother calls me a mistake everyday and my father just doesn't cherish me. But whenever i would bring Cassie over, they would spend time with her, talk to her, and listen to her. They loved her.

Was i not enough? Is what repeated in my head every night.

I got used to it after a while, they would spend all day at the office just to avoid taking care of me. Loving me....

That was until my mom hired susan. She was a beautiful brown lady, and although she was old she took very good care of me. She had long black hair, that she'd often tied her hair in a bun, sometimes she would let it out so i could dream that she was Rapunzel. I loved her.

I cherished moments with her because she would love me. She combed my hair, sang me songs, read me stories, feed me and bath me. She did what a mother is supposed to do to their child.

I didn't see much of my parents then. But Susan made me feel like I didn't have to see them. She was my knight and shining armour.

At this point i was at my happiest. I hanged out with Blake and Kalani a lot, they always showed me love and supported me.

Then i met Josh.

He was so cute with his blue eyes and blonde hair. I was completely in love with him! He was so sweet and generous. Sure i was young and didn't know what i was feeling, but every time i saw him my face lit up.

I was getting ready to go to his house one morning and he was talking to kalani, I would've interrupted them but he had his hands on his head leaning on his knees while Kalani was comforting him.

So i stood there behind his gate and tried to listen to their conversation.

"I don't know what to do kal, i really like Cassie, she beautiful and smart! But I don't know how to tell her" is what josh said.

Hearing him express his feelings for her, broke me. My eyes filled with tears as i stood there till what felt like forever. I slowly walked away when kalani caught up to me. She asked if i was okay but i just told her that my mom was being mean to me again and she took me to Josh. He was comforting me and I didn't want to let go of him.

That was my first heart break. So yeah I started being rude to Cassie but she still stayed my friend and tried heaps to get me and Josh together but each time she tried he would express his feelings for her.

She didn't know but that day he left i was planning on giving him my first kiss. I went to where him and Cassie would go to talk. I knew he would be there because Cassie told me thats where she would say her goodbye.

I stood behind a tree that looked over to the bridge upon the lake.

And i saw, i saw them kiss. In front of my very eyes. Oh how I wanted to cry. My heart sunk to the ground and i was left again with another heartbreak. Thats when i lost it. I hated Cassie.

I ran home hoping to see Susan so she could comfort me or at least read me a song.
But she wasn't there.

my father was home. I was shocked to see he still remembered me. I was so full of hatered that if Susan wasn't around i at least needed him to tell me i was going to be okay. Except he didn't.

He gave me the worse news i could have ever received. My eyes were full of tears, because of what I witnessed.

"Lilith why are you crying" my father said to me with no care what so ever.

"It's ok dad, i'll just wait till Susan comes home" was my response.

I wish my dad was a bit more caring so he could've warned me of what came next. I could've prepared myself.  I don't know how but i just could've done something.

"About that Lilith, Susan isn't coming back, she passed away this morning." My father said to me with no emotions.

Those words, that sentence rolled of his tongue and out of his mouth like he didn't give a fuck. And i was right he didn't care not one bit. I was lost, of words, emotions, tears, Nothing. I felt bland, like i had no more meaning to my life. So i ran. I ran to the one person I'd knew still loved me even though i hated her.

I ran and ran till i stopped. I stopped at Cassies house but her mother and stepfather were arguing. I saw him. He punched her, he was on top of her, punching and punching not stopping. I was scared, More than scared. I had witnessed my Cassies step father kill her mother.

I didn't know how to feel or how to react so i ran again. Hoping just hoping all these mixed emotions would leave me but no matter how much i ran, nothing could've helped me.

That's until we started High school. I stopped talking to Cassie i just didn't know how to face her. During school Cassie was quiet because of the lost of her mother.

And yet again, all the guys I crushed on ran to her. I was beyond mad, She started getting popular and attention without even try and even though she didn't talk to people all she had to do was breathe. So thats when i spread the rumours.

I told everyone her mother was a drug addict and thats how she died, i told them Cassie would do it too and how she fucked older guys.
Everybody started hating her and I became popular. I felt like I finally conquered something. Sure some days I'd feel guilt but i had to block them away if that meant i could be happy.It got to the point where her stepfather heard about the rumours and eventually told Lilith that, that was the reason she died. And of course she believed him.

I was just so sick of living under hear shadow.
And thats when I started sleeping around, until i slept with Noah. He said he didn't want anything serious and that we were Nothing but fuck buddies. He was so handsome and the more we had sex the more i fell for him. He sometimes just got up and left after we'd fuck. Sometimes I'd cry and sometimes I'd chase after him. He just wouldn't acknowledge me. Why did i let him treat me like this? I.. i don't even know that answer my self.

I noticed something was up with him, he was so distant with me. I soonly figured out why with the help of my minions. They saw him kissing Cassie fucking Jones. I didn't do anything at first, i just cried. Then i saw the way he started looking at her, he never looked at me like that. Everyone i loved, loved her. But i was planning something.

This repeating history shit has to stop right fucking now.

Coming back to reality.

As soon as i saw Josh hop on the bus. My insides felt like exploding. Oh god how he grew handsome. I needed him. No i fucking wanted him.

That was until he found his way to Cassie, she hugged him so tight. A sense of sadness kept coming back to me as i replay the memories of everything that happened. Not to mention i was jealous.I got up and walked towards him, pushing my bra up so you could see my boobs and pulling my skirt higher. He's a guy so this should work.

But it didn't he just stared into Cassies eyes like he stared into her eyes the day they kissed. It disgusted me.He was staring at her the way Noah stares at her.