Back to You

Ch.20

A/N: As always, leave me your thoughts and enjoy!

It had been three weeks since her blow up with Fin and one week since she decided to tell Nick and Amanda about Elliot. Surprisingly though, it had went well. Neither Nick or Amanda had lived through the Benson-Stabler days so they didn't really have anything to go off of so they had accepted Elliot. Fin and Elliot had a long talk about everything that had went down, ending with a handshake and a mutual understanding that they both wanted what was best for Olivia so they put the past behind them and started fresh. Tonight though, she was starting all over again. Her and Elliot had decided to tell the rest of his kids.

Elliot was preparing dinner in the kitchen while Olivia paced around the living room, wine glass in hand. "Liv, calm down. They aren't savages," he chuckled, but only received a glare from her so he changed his approach. "C'mere," he opened his arms, encouraging her to come to him but she just shook her head. He walked towards her, stopping a couple feet away "Please."

She put down her glass and willingly went into his arms, resting her head on his chest "What if they're mad? Or they think that we've been lying to them? I haven't seen them in three years Elliot we're all different people. What if they don't even like me anymore?"

"Liv, you are thinking way too deep into this," he tried to soothe, holding her tight and rubbing her back. "You have always had a special place in their heart's. The three years where I didn't speak to you, they asked me about you and tried to convince me to call you all of the time."

"They what?" she asked, turning her face up towards his.

He gave her a sweet peck on the lips "You heard me. They wanted me to talk to you. I closed myself off for a really long time and wouldn't talk to anyone. They figured that maybe talking about you or getting me to call you would help but I just couldn't do it." He dropped his head down to rest his forehead against hers "In the beginning, the memories of you only made me miss you more and made me regret what I was doing.  I was so ashamed of myself and what I had done, that I was such a coward to walk away from you." He gave her another light kiss and then dropped his head to her shoulder "After about a year, maybe more, I realized the memories of you were the only thing, along with my kids, that kept me going. They never gave up on me, even after all that time, they would still ask about you or hint that I should call." He pulled back and cupped her face in his hands "The point of me telling you that was to show you that they already have some sort of idea how much I care about you and how much you mean to me, and I know that you mean a lot to them too."

"Thank you," she breathed out as she pulled his face down so she could kiss him.

Once he pulled back he looked deep into her eyes, getting lost in them like he always did "No ... Thank you , Liv. For everything you have given me, but more importantly, loving me the way you do."

Olivia sniffled and she kissed him again, allowing her lips to linger on his and feeling the tingling sensation she got every time he kissed her "I love you so much, Elliot, but you can't make me cry right now," she chuckled "I don't want to be a mess when your kids get here."

Elliot pushed the hair away from her face "You're beautiful and I love you more than words ... please stop worrying. The Stabler's love you," and with that there was a knock on the door, "I'll get it."

"Okay," she nodded her head and finished the last bit of wine.

Elliot threw open the doors "Hey guys, I've missed you."

"We've missed you too," they all chorused as they all exchanged hugs.

"Where's Liv, Dad? We have a lot to catch up on," Lizzie stated as she threw off her jacket.