I AM THE EYES

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I'M NOT MEANT TO LOVE.
I AM AN ENTITY.
I DON'T NEED ANYONE.
I DON'T WANT ANYTHING.

I AM JUST HERE.
I WORK.
I DO NOT PLAY.
I DO NOT HELP.
NOR DO I NEED IT.

I AM MEANT TO PLEASE.
DO I PLEASE YOU, WILL?
DO I?
TELL ME I DO.
TELL ME I AM A GOOD BOY.
A GOOD BOY FOR YOU.

AM I GOOD ENOUGH?
DO I FUFILL WHAT YOU WANT?
DO I DO AS I AM TOLD?
WILL?
CAN YOU HEAR ME?
IS ANYBODY OUT THERE?

can you hear me?
i'm begging.
i'm on my knees.
please.
why aren't you doing anything?
why?
what's going on?
will?
are you there?
do you care?

where are you going will?
why are you leaving?
WHY ARE YOU FUCKING LEAVING?
DON'T YOU DARE WALK AWAY

YOU WILL DESTROY ME
DO YOU WANT ME DEAD?
HUNG BY A STRING?

I WILL GOUGE OUT MY EYES TO SEE YOU SMILE
LET ME MAKE YOU HAPPY WILL
DOES MY ARM BLEEDING AS I WRITE THIS MAKE YOU HAPPY?
IT DOES?

IT'S DRIPPING DOWN MY ARM.
I AM WATCHING.

I WONDER WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE YOU.
let's pretend.
PRETEND YOU CARE.
will?
will?
will?
will?

are you going?
love?

WHEN
I
OPEN
MY
EYES,
I
WISH
TO
SEE
you.

don't leave.
BUT YOU'RE GONE ALL THE TIME.
YOUR PHONE DOESN'T RING.
YOU DON'T TEXT BACK.
I'VE TRAVELLED TOO FAR FROM HOME.

help.

hello karl.
i love you.
look after yourself.
listen to your favourite music.
go downstairs and make yourself some food,
or grab a drink.

go for a walk, even.
draw, maybe?
you could write; revise too.
make some stories.
look after yourself yeah?
take care.

you're doing so well, i'm so proud.
i'm so fucking proud of you.

- ANUBIS