Fanmeetings (Jikook)

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Jungkook reached his hotel mindlessly. He didn't know what was even happening around him. He could barely breathe. He felt so exhausted and ashamed.

"Hey! How was your day?" Taehyung asked excited when he saw him standing near his room.
"I.." Jungkook whispered then looked up at him. Taehyung gasped seeing his bloodshot eyes.
"Kookie! What happened?!" He asked cupping his face. Jungkook just looked at him, his heart ached thinking of Jimin's expression.

Taehyung took him to his room because he didn't want the other members to find out.
"What happened!?" he asked as he made him sit on a chair and pulled one to sit in front of him.
"I fucked up..." Jungkook whispered.
"What did you do?" Taehyung held his hands.

Jungkook looked up at him, his eyes dark and face flushed. His lips trembled as he spoke out.
"I met Yugyeom and Mingyu. They're here for our concert. And I... I didn't know how to explain who Jimin was so I just..." Jungkook gulped.
"I just agreed he was a casual fuck where infact he..."
"I love him." Jungkook said and Taehyung gulped.

"Then... Why did you say that?" Taehyung asked softly.
"I couldn't think of anything. I... I panicked. I didn't want anyone to hear about him. Not that I am ashamed of him but because I wanted to protect him." Jungkook tried, his tears fell and his breathing hitched as he tried to talk some more.

"I didn't want him to get hate. I didn't know what to say. I just... I should have said something else but I... I didn't know what to do, hyung. I love him so much but I've humiliated him. I can't even beg for forgiveness. He'd never." Jungkook cupped his head in his hands and began sobbing.

Taehyung felt an ugly squeeze in his heart as he saw him sob. He knew the pain both Jimin and Jungkook were going through, he would want to protect Hoseok too but he was rejected. He sighed.

" Look, kookie. I love you but here... You weren't right. You need to own up to your feelings, I know... It's difficult. I'll try to talk to him tomorrow. Okay?" Taehyung offered and Jungkook just cried inconsolably but he nodded for a yes.

Taehyung bit his lip as he thought of what he'd say to him. Because Jungkook indeed had fucked up badly.
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Jimin ran as fast as he could. Tears streamed down his face and he felt breathless. He halted suddenly and panted as he looked around. He felt void of any emotion suddenly.

The words 'casual fuck' echoed in his mind. Jungkook was that ashamed to own up to being with him. And why would he? He'd risk his entire career. Jimin wasn't worth all of that.

Jimin looked down as he sobbed people who walked by looked at the sad sight. He looked dejected.

Jimin sobbed as he slowly walked up to his hotel. He didn't know what he was going to say to Hoseok. He had been right all along and Jimin just fucked everything up.

His clothes were smelling like Jungkook, he could still feel his kisses. His warm hugs. Hear his beautiful voice. See his bunny smile. Everything. But he could never face him again. And he probably would never. He knew he was going to be forgotten by Jungkook.

He felt stupid for ever believing they'd end up together. Who was he? A stupid fan at most. He was one of millions and to be with Jungkook would be a privilege. Heck, just being noticed by him once would be one. And Jimin had it all, even if it was just for a moment. That was the sad reality.

Jimin stood outside Hoseok's room as he tears fell. He knocked timidly and heard Hoseok.
"Coming!" Hoseok's happy voice made Jimin sob harder.
"Jiminie!" Hoseok beamed then his smile disappeared.
"JIMIN! WHAT HAPPENED!?" He cupped his face immediately.

"Hyung!" Jimin just hugged him and sobbed. Hoseok clenched his jaw as he hugged his best friend. He knew what had happened, Jungkook probably rejected Jimin.
"I'm here. I'm here." He said patting his back softly.

Jimin cried harder. Oh, how was he ever going to tell Hoseok what had actually happened? Hoseok would go pick up a fight.

They went inside the room. Jimin lay down on his bed and just sobbed into a pillow. Hoseok lay next to him and hugged him. Jimin sobbed in his chest.

"Jiminie.. What happened? Tell hyungie.." Hoseok tried. Jimin's cries were so heart wrenching. He sobbed in pain. In agony. In shame.

"I'm so stupid, hyung..." Jimin said between his sobs.
"What did he do?" Hoseok asked seriously.
"Nothing that would be surprising to you." Jimin said wiping his tears.
"Tell me." Hoseok said.
"He... He just... He was so ashamed of telling his friends who I was that he just... Agreed that I was a casual fuck." Jimin cried hard.

"He what!?" Hoseok was shocked, then Jimin explained everything he heard. After listening there was a silence in the room, Jimin just sobbed softly, clutching onto Hoseok's t-shirt.

"Jiminie.. That's why I didn't... I..." Hoseok was speechless.
"Jiminie.. We're not meant for them. We never will be one of them. We're just us. " Hoseok said softly and rubbed Jimin's back.

"I know that now, hyung. I... I just... I thought there was something. I guess I was just being my dumb self. Why am I like this hyung? Why don't I ever learn!?" Jimin was in so much pain, was sick of being betrayed. Hoseok closed his eyes as he felt a dull pain in his heart too.

This really did mean he was right to blow things off with Taehyung. They just weren't a match.

" Let's just leave, Jiminie. Let's just forget this ever happened." Hoseok said softly. Jimin simply nodded as he sobbed hugging him. He was going to listen to his best friend this time and maybe this would be the best thing to do.

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