Naked Series #1: Undress My Soul (COMPLETE)

Chapter 19

Tulala ako habang nakatingin sa bintana ng taxi na sinasakyan ko. Napalitan ng puro puno and kanina ay mga bahay at establishment kaya binuksan ko ang bintana ng taxi para makalanghap ng sariwang hangin matapos kong magpaalam sa driver.

Pumasok sa isip ko ang sinabi ng psychiatrist ko kanina bago ako nagdesisyon sa pag-alis ko.

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"So... Your hallucinations and other mental problems returned?" Paglilinaw niya sa sinabi ko.

Tumango ako. "Yes. It started almost six months ago-"

"And you didn't tell me."

Napatungo ako. "I'm sorry. I was too busy to even think about my situation."

Napabuntong hininga si Beca, my psychiatrist, sa sinabi ko. Sumandal siya sa swivel chair habang matiim na nakatitig sa akin.

"Sinabi ko na sayo na huwag mong babaliwalain ang kalagayan mo, hindi ba? I told you that your situation might get worst if not treated as soon as possible." Sermon niya sa akin.

Yes. I'm aware of the fact that these hallucinations I have can lead me to kill someone... Or kill myself.

"I'm sorry." Guilty na sabi ko.

She sighed. Sinong hindi mamomroblema kung muntik na siyang mawalan ng isang pasyente? Kulang na lang kurutin niya ang singit ko kanina nang malamang muntik na akong magpakamatay.

"Just don't do that again. I already consider you as a friend and I don't want your situation to get worse like my other patients. I'll write you a new prescription and I want you to try new therapy."

She started telling me ways to lessen my hallucinations and other problems. 

"And I also recommend you to unwind far from your stressors. Clear your mind, you need it. Find your peace in any way, just tell me about it and I'll give you a signal if you can do it or not. Understood?" Binigay niya ang gamot ko.

I smiled. "Yeah. Thank you, Beca." I hugged her and then left.

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Now here I am, trying to find my peace. Tinawagan ako ng rehabilitation center at sinabi nila na ngayon ililipat si Dad sa Baguio. He just finished everything and I'm happy because they told me that my Dad is now fully recovered and clean. Malaki daw ang pinagbago ng Daddy ko at hinahanap niya ako para kausapin. I'm planning to personally go with him in Baguio so that we can talk about things.

"Thank you po." Pasalamat ko sa driver nang makarating kami sa rehabilitation center.

May kalayuan sa sibilisasyon ang rehabilitation center kaya medyo matagal ang biyahe. Magiging madali naman ang pagpunta namin sa Baguio dahil malapit lang ang Baguio dito. Siguro nasa three hours na biyahe na lang at naroon na kami.

"Good afternoon, Miss Araneta!" Bati sa akin ng head supervisor.

Naglakad kami patungo sa purong puting building.

"Good afternoon! Where is my Dad?"

"He was excited when I told him about your wish to visit him. His luggage is already packed and the staff are transferring it all in a van you'll be using."

Huminto kami sa isang pinto at binuksan niya ito.

"Your father is inside." Then she left to give us some privacy.