After we finished our picnic, Larissa and I sat on the blanket, looking out at the lake. It had started to get cold, so I draped my jacket over her bare shoulders and huddled up close to her.
"I could stay here forever," I told her.
"Me too, it's so beautiful," she smiled.
"I didn't necessarily mean here at the lake," I said. "But here like this, with you."
The way she looked at me in that moment made me feel like I was in a dream. I could have died right there and still feel like I had done everything I needed to in my life.
"You're sweet," she said, then rested her head on my shoulder.
"I'm honest," I corrected her.
We stared out at the water for a few minutes and neither of us spoke. It was so quiet, I was sure that even the birds had left us alone for a while.
"I'm so happy you finally agreed to go out with me."
"Me too," she responded, picking her head up off my shoulder to look at me. "I wish I had done it sooner."
"So why didn't you?" I asked, trying to pass it off as light-hearted conversation, though I really wanted to know.
"There's a lot of reasons, I suppose," she sighed. "Obviously, Brandon was an issue, and-"
"Yep, he was," I agreed, interrupting her. She just laughed, and continued to talk.
"But the main reason was that I was scared."
"Scared of what?" I frowned. "Admitting you're not straight?"
"Well, a little bit... but I kinda got over that relatively quickly. I was more scared that... well, I was worried that I was just another name you would put on your list."
Her words shocked me, and I was at a loss for words. She looked at me sympathetically, which made me think I looked upset.
"Ivy, I know that you-"
"Larissa, you never would have been just another name on my list. You are the fucking list," I said, and she looked rather confused. "Okay, that didn't make sense... What I mean is, that you're the only girl I have ever had actual feelings for. All of the other girls meant nothing to me, it's completely different with you. I would quite happily never have sex again, as long as I could look into your eyes forever."
Her cheeks turned pink, and she smiled at my compliment, not breaking eye contact with me for a second.
"I know I wasn't seeing things properly, Ivy. But you have to admit, it did kind of look that way sometimes."
"Why?" I asked. I had done nothing but persue Larissa from the moment I had met her.
"You told me on multiple occasions that you'd never been in a relationship, and you only had meaningless one night stands."
I sighed at her response, wondering why I had been so stupid in telling her that.
"And then I started to think that maybe you really liked me," she continued. "And then we got a little more intimate, and then you told me you weren't gonna see me for a while."
I contemplated punching myself in the face for being a complete and utter moron.
"So I kinda thought that you had already got what you wanted, and that's why you were so eager to step away from whatever was going on with us."
"Honestly, I thought that I was doing the right thing," I sighed. "I didn't want to push you into anything, in case you weren't ready for it. I wanted to give you time to think about what you wanted. I didn't realise I made it worse. I'm such an idiot!"
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Turning Larissa (GirlxGirl)
RomanceA chance encounter between Ivy Shaw and Larissa Aske, leaves Ivy desperate for Larissa's attention. It's new territory for both of them, and neither of them are sure how it will all play out.