Is death really the answer (calum hood fanfiction)

I really don't wanna do this

I woke up to my phone ringing. I checked it with one eye. It was ash

"Hey watz up" I said yawning

"Wtf where are you Lola"

"Wat u said 7 it's only like 4" I said confused

"Are u serious it's 7:30"

"Wat is it fuck Soz ash I feel asleep I'll be there ASAP "

" it's fine just hurry ok see u soon lo" he sighed and then hung up

"Cal wake up we're gonna be late"I scream

"It's to early Lola got back to sleep"

"Cal it's 7:30"

"Wat shit come on " he said jumping up

"Ammm cal you might wanna"I try to hold my laughter back but I couldn't I burst out laughing and couldn't finish my sentence.

"Watt"

"You might wanna put on a top " I say laughing

"Oh yeah" he laughed with me

I quickly got myself ready and we hurried to Ashton's when we got there I said bye we kissed and just before he left calum said

" I'm gonna make this the best date ever just call me when you done ok"

"Ok bye" I said as he drove off

I knock on the door while texting my mom saying I was staying at a friends for the night she txt bak instantly saying she was happy I made friends. Just then ash opened the door

"Hey". He said

"Hi " I try to avoid eye contact

"Who the fuck is here ash is it Ruth or......" Luke stop mid sentence when he saw me standing in the hall way

"Hi luke how are you getting on after everything that happened " I say nervous

"Oh you know fine who wouldn't be fucking fine after their sister killed herself because of what me and ash did and then not only has my sister left but my best friend who happened to be my girlfriend breaks up with me well fuck u lo I fucking hate you you don't give a shit about anyone but yourself we'll news flash no one gives a fuck about you either" he said

"Wow well ammm ok it's good your putting it out there I amm guess" I say kinda hurt

"Ok how about a drink and lo can explain wat you think luke" ash said trying to ease the tension

"Yeah sure" I say

"Wat ever I don't care any more" luke said

So we had a drink and after i tried to explain

"Wait before I start is it ok if my friend comes over he deserves to know why I'm like this too"

"Sure" said ash

"Ok one sec I'll call him"

I walk into the hall and call calum

"Hey Lola you done already"

"Hey no I was wondering if you could come over I want to explain to you wat happened to my friend and y I moved"

"Yeah sure I'll be there in a sec "

" ok" I saying hanging up and walking into the kitchen

"He'll be here in a minute " I say as luke hands me a glass of water

"Thxs"

"Listen lo I'm sorry I said all that earlier it's just I miss my best friend and lily and everyone " he say " it's fine " I say hugging him and ash. Just then the doorbell rang