As if it couldn't get worse
I didn't want to cry in front of you
Crying, choking back my sobs
Chest wildly spasming
I didn't want to be consoled
I wanted to be left alone
When you pat my back
It felt like a million stings
All at once
It felt toxic
I flew back in a rage like matter
I didn't want to be touched
I wanted to leave
But I wasn't insane
I would get lost
I felt trapped
If I left, I would have nothing
But if I stayed,
I would be in a constant state of pain
I wished in that moment
I was at home
And I had never went outside
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Hopeless Poet
PoetryI write about the world. Her, him, the places of meaning, aggression, compassion, or human nature. TRIGGER WARNING !! some poems talk about s*elf harm and su*cide. Please do not read if you are sensitive to such topics. I will try to put a trigger...
