Lacking Love//Namjin FF//

8

Namjoon and Jin started getting closer by the days, meeting up at least once a week.
They where now considered as friends, not strangers anymore.
Namjoon started to open up more to Jin, though, not mentioning what happens to him sometimes.
Jin didn't mind it though, he didn't want the younger to feel uncomfortable.

Jin decided to call Namjoon that day, to offer him coming to his house, for the first time.
They did meet up, but never at each other's houses.
Jin took his phone and dialed Namjoon.
After a while, Namjoon picked up.
"Hi hyung" Namjoon said across the call, his tone quite down.
"Hi Namjoon, I wanted to ask if you want to cone over to hangout." Jin said quite cheerfully.
"Sure, but where?" Namjoon asked.
"At my place" Jin replied.
After a moment of silence, Namjoon replied.
"I don't know.." he seemed hesitant.
"Come on..please?" Jin pleaded the younger.
Jin then heard someone across the call.
"Namjoon!"he heard the person yell, the rest wasn't too clear.
"Namjoon, is everything okay?" Jin asked.
"I-I'll call you in a while." Namjoon said as he ended the call.
"I swear this boy is full of mysteries" Jin muttered under his breath.

Around twenty minutes later, Jin saw that his phone was ringing, Namjoon was calling.
Jin picked up the phone, "Did you make up your mind?" He asked.
"Mhm, tell me your address, I'm waiting for a cab" Namjoon informed the older.
Jin gave Namjoon his address as he ended the call.
He then waited for Namjoon's arrival.

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The doorbell rang, but Jin didn't open.
Yoongi did so instead.
"Um, hi?" Namjoon said as he looked down at the sleepy younger in front of him.
"Yoongi, let him in" Jin said as he pushed the shorter.
Namjoon got in as he handed over some sweets he got for Jin.
Jin happily accepted the small gift as he lead Namjoon inside.
They sat in the living room with Yoongi.
It was awkward at first, silence was surrounding them.
Yoongi then got up, "I'll leave you two alone" he said as he went to his room.
"So.." Namjoon said.
Jin fiddled with his fingers, trying to acknowledge why he was so nervous.
A while later, Jin spoke up.
"Thanks for the gift" He said.
"It's nothing, I didn't know what to get but I remembered how much you loved these so I bought them" Namjoon said with a smile.
The atmosphere got less awkward as they spoke.

Curiosity took over Jin, he hesitated to ask "Do you mind if I asked..why was there someone yelling?" Jin asked.
Namjoon's smile faded.
He didn't know what to answer.
A while later, he gave it in.
"It was my father.." Namjoon replied while clenching his fists.
"Oh..it's okay if you don't want to talk about it" Jin said.
"No, I think it's time that I tell you." Namjoon said, leaving Jin confused.
"Tell me what?" Jin asked.
Namjoon took a deep breathe "you won't judge me, right?" He asked.
"I would never, I promise." Jin said.
"Well, you know when I suddenly doze off or start shaking all of a sudden?" Namjoon continued "well.. I have epilepsy" He said as his eyes were glossy.
"That's it?" Jin asked, confusing Namjoon.
"Why would I judge you for that? It's totally normal" Jin continued.
Namjoon's eyes were starting to fill up with tears.
Jin noticed so and immediately held Namjoon's hands, trying to calm him down.
"I was always judged for it, even by my own father" Namjoon continued.
"Everyone around me, they made fun of me, calling me nicknames, thinking I did it on purpose, just to seek for attention" Namjoon continued as he gulped his thick saliva.
"Even my mother left me for that reason" Namjoon continued.
At this point, tears were streaming down Namjoon's face.
Jin hugged the younger as he rubbed circles on his back.
"I'm sure you mother didn't leave you for so, don't listen to such stuff, you're perfect just the way you are." Jin tried to pacify the younger.
Namjoon hugged him back, tightly gripping on the older's shirt.
He then said pulled back as Jin gave him some tissues.
Namjoon quickly wiped his tears away as he got up.
"I'm sorry what I've caused, I should get going now" Namjoon said as his breath hitched.
Jin quickly hugged Namjoon once again.
"No, it's fine, it's fine to let it all out. Please stay." Jin pleaded the younger.
Yoongi then got out of the room.
"aww, you look cute together" he told them as Jin could feel his cheeks getting red.
"We're not dating" they both said at the same time.
"yet" Yoongi said with a grin as he winked to the now blushing Jin.
Jin glared at Yoongi as the latter exited the room.