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Chapter 13

Yoohyeon's POV

When I went inside my mom's room, I was more than happy that Siyeon's father wasn't there. And I knew where he was. He was outside with both of his daughters this time. And I was so happy about it.

I started talking to my mom for my day, like I always do. I told her everything. And especially how happy I was that I had friends by my side, that the play went well, and that Siyeon was talking with her dad again.

My mom was in a coma for three years now. I was at the end of fifteen back then, to be exact. The doctors had said that she might could hear me. At first I couldn't believe them. I was talking to her in my mind. But later on, it was hard. Too hard. I missed talking to her. I missed her smile, her laughs, her advices. Everything. So I started talking to her slowly slowly. And now, I couldn't stop talking to her. And I was talking to her. About everything. Her condition was stable for three years now. Except that finger that moved, few weeks ago.

I started crying again when I remembered everything I went through. I might looked cold to most of people, and so much more mature than most eighteen years old teens, but... I had my breakdowns too. Life made me like this. It wasn't something I chose to.

"Mom,... It's too hard without you." I mumbled between my silent sobs.

"Everyone had someone out there to look for them at the play today. I had none mom. I wished you were there. I thought of you between the crowd. It's so painful mom." I said and cried again.

"Yoohyeon we brought- Yoohyeon?!" Gahyeon said. She then rushed to my side and hugged me. I wiped my tears quickly and took in a few deep breaths trying to calm down.

"Unnie? Are you alright?" She asked worriedly.

"Yeah I'm fine Gahyeon-ah." I tried to say.

"We brought you ice cream Yoohyeon." Siyeon's father said. I looked at him and thanked him. Beside him was Siyeon and she was looking at me worriedly too. I could sense she wanted to hug me and talk to me but she was hesitant about it.

"Uncle, can you take Gahyeon and go for a while? I need to talk with Siyeon." I said truthfully this time. I wasn't going to lie this time. It wasn't necessary anyway. They knew me and they knew Siyeon too. And they knew we were friends so it was normal for us to want to stay alone and talk. They nodded and left the room. Siyeon stayed at her place still frozen though.

"Come here pabo!" I said laughing a bit. She came and I hugged her tightly. And just like that I started sobbing in her arms. She was caressing my back and she was saying it would be alright. I took some deep breaths and stopped crying a little. I stepped a bit back so I could see her when I was talking to her and started talking.

"It's so hard Siyeon unnie. It's so hard to cover the emptiness I feel. It's so hard to pretend that everything is fine. It's so hard not having a mom. It's so hard..." I said and started crying again. She hugged me again, tightly. She kissed my head and said that everything will be fine. That I was doing fine so far and that I could keep going. And also, she told me to be hopeful and that my mom was going to wake up soon. I wished she was right about that one...

"Yoohyeon... I'm sorry again. For everything. You had a hard time with your mom and I was being a bitch. I even hit your face! I'm sorry. I'm SO sorry. I truly am." She said looking on the ground. She was feeling guilty.

"Enough with being sorry Siyeon unnie. You say sorry everyday. I told you already that I forgave you. You should forgive yourself too. I understand you. I understand why you did what you did. It's in the past anyway. We can't change anything. Let's change the future at least." She nodded and hugged me again.