Taekook Oneshots

Old News

Angst 🥀⛈

WARNING: Mentions of suicide and self harm! Read at your own risk!

Top: Jungkook
Bottom: Taehyung

Taehyung didn't know what was real anymore.

Every day he would wake up with no one beside him, feeling numb and empty.

Every night he would wait for his lover to come home, worried sick. Every time he would come back with lipstick on his neck and breath that reeked of alcohol.

He would ask what happened, Jungkook brushed him off. Like he was just a fly on his shoulder.

He missed the kisses. Maybe sometimes if Jungkook was in a really good mood, he would give him a quick peck. But no real kiss.

He missed how sweet and comforting it felt. Now it felt cold and forced; almost like he wanted to be anywhere else but there.

He missed the gentle touches on his thighs, back hugs, handholding.

He missed the soft smiles, giggles, and cuddles.

He missed the sex.

Oh my god how he missed the sex...

Jungkook was always so careful and caring when with him, always making sure he had what he needed and he was ok with everything.

Jungkook didn't even glance at him now.

Jungkook didn't touch him, and Taehyung couldn't touch Jungkook.

Every time Taehyung would sneak up behind him and give him a hug, Jungkook would sigh push his hands off roughly.

"Not right now, Taehyung."

Taehyung.

It was always Taehyung.

Not Tae or TaeTae or love anymore.

Taehyung stung. It didn't sound right coming out of Jungkook's lips. He had gotten so used to the other names.

Taehyung knew it had to end soon. Was he not good enough for Jungkook? Or for anyone for that matter?

Just a little jump off of a very tall building and a little courage was all it took.

Just a little too many pills at one time.

Just a few extra cuts on his already-scarred wrist.

Just a good kick to a chair and a rope around his neck.

That's all it took. That's all it would take to disappear. Forever.

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So there he was...

Slicing his skin to the point it was bleeding horribly.

There he was...

Crying and sobbing, his heart clenching at the thought of not being good enough.

There he was...

So close to his life being washed away.

That's all he thought to himself.

"So close..."

That's all he thought to himself before everything went black.

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The front door slammed shut; Jungkook being a little tipsy as he took his shoes off and threw his coat on the counter.

"Taehyung?" Jungkook called out. The older male always greeted him at the door.

But... why was everything so silent? Why were the lights off?

Jungkook assumes he didn't stay up for him for once and went to bed.

He goes upstairs, turning the hall light on in the process because it was so dark.

"Taehyung? You awake?" No answer.

The younger got to the door. Why was there an envelope with a paper inside?

'Jeon Jungkook,
My love.
My kookie.
My bunny.
My baby.
My everything.
I'm sorry I had to leave so soon. I will miss you. I know you won't miss me, but don't forget about me, ok? I'll always be in your heart.

Yesterday was the last day I greeted you at the door.
Yesterday was the last day I would ever back hug you.
Yesterday was the last day I could ever kiss you again.
Yesterday was the last day I would ever attempt to hold your hand.
Yesterday was the last day I said I love you.

I know our relationship is old news, but I love you. I still love you. I will always love you, Jeon Jungkook.

- Kim Taehyung'

Jungkook had a terrible gut feeling as he put the paper down with shaking hands and opened the bedroom door.

Not seeing anyone in sight he goes to the bathroom door...

He opens it....

And feels his heart drop.

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-5 years later-

"I love you, Taehyung. I'll miss you." Jungkook says as he lays Taehyung's favorite flowers on his grave.

Chrysanthemums were his favorite.

"I know our relationship is old news,

But I'll never forget you."