Choices and Chances(Completed)

Chapter 47

Hey, I said tilting his head to face me.

Why? I asked him as he stares at me while tears falling down his face

I wipe his tears using my hands and I smiled at him.

It's going to be okay

It will? He asked me while holding my hand

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Dane, can we talk now? Can we talk about us? Please?

I pulled away but he held my hand tighter.

Please, let me hold your hand while we talk. Please Dane, I miss having you near me, I miss holding you. I miss you so much!

Rick, akala ko ba usap? What do you want to talk about?

He told me everything about him and Trish even her plan to back abroad, he told everything including his plans of pursuing me again.

I can see how sincere he is , I can see how transparent and vulnerable he is right now.

Dane please, I cannot promise you that once Trish and the baby leave I will stop communicating with them because I am still the baby's father, I still want to be part of his life even I'm away. Please give me another chance.

I am not asking you that. I just - I don't know if I can trust you again after all the lies, cheating and judgment.

I'm sorry Dane.

Can we compromise?

Sure, sige, ano ba yun?

Stop sending me food, stop texting and calling me, stop –

Dane, diba sabi ko sayo –

Will you let me finish first?

Stop seeing me; stop everything you do about me. I want to be alone, but it doesn't mean I will never talk to you again. While you are settled with your issue with Trish, we will talk again.

So you want me stay away from you?

Look Rick, if we stay together while Trish also stays with you, what do you think people will say? Even after the fact that you both got us pregnant, how about us? What kind of girls do you think people will say about us? Our babies? I just don't want this to get more complicated Enricko.

Pero paano ka? Si baby? He said caressing my belly

I can take care of myself and my baby Rick

Our baby Dane

Rick please, I'm sorry pero hindi ko pa rin kayang sabhin yang sinasabi mo kasi-kasi nasasaktan pa rin ako. Naaalala ko pa rin kung paano ka nagduda sakin, sa baby ko, sa amin.

I'm sorry

Kaya ko kasi lahat Enricko alam mo yan, pero ang sakit nung tinanggihan mo yung anak ko. Alam mo naman kung paano ako sa mga magulang ko diba? Nattakot akong baka maramdaman ng anak ko yung mga nararamdaman ko bilang anak.

Rick, even after your thing with Trish I can promise you a talk but I cannot promise you that we will get back together. I still need to work on my trust for you.

I understand, but will you allow me to be our baby's father?

Ikaw naman talaga daddy niya kahit ano pang mangyari. My baby will carry your name and I will let you meet each other.

Meet? Can't we be a complete family as our baby grows? Let's get marry

Rick, kakasabi ko lang. Ayokong maging selfish, kahit mangingibang bansa sila Trish, may anak ka pa rin sa kanya. Anong mafifeel ng bata na ikaw nandito kasama naming tapos isla nasa malayo?

Kaya isasacrifice mo yung chance ng anak natin maranasan yung hindi mararanasan ni Terrence?

Ayokong luamking hindi buo pamilya ng anak ko pero ayokong pangunahan yung pagkakataon. Naaiintindihan mob a Rick. Kailangan natin to parehong pagisipan ng mabuti

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Rick, ginagawa ko to hindi lang para sa anak mo sa akin pati na rin para sa anak m okay Trish.

Kung wala sila magpapakasal ka sakin?

Oo, bakit hindi? Yun naman ang plano natin diba?

Kasalanan ko lahat to

Stop blaming yourself, just be happy. You are blessed to have to babies Rick. Be thankful. Stop blaming yourself and think of what is right. what is right for your babies, for yourself, for Trish, for me, for us. Can you do that?

I promise to be better Dane.

Thank you. When ben gets back tomorrow uuwi na ko, I need to have a decent sleep.

Sleep here, beside me

What?

Para makahiga ka ng maayos, ayokong matulog ka sa couch hindi komportable sa inyo ng baby.

How about you? I will not allow you to sleep in the couch either. Injured ka oh.

Then let's sleep beside each other.

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Please?

I took a deep breath and position myself in his hospital bed beside him. I felt his arm around me, he is now caressing my baby bump.

I wish I could stay beside you always. I want to be with you in every step of your pregnancy, I want to be with you when you give birth. I want to hold our baby first before anyone else, well aside from doctors and nurses. I want to spend my life with you. I'm so sorry.

Sssshhh. Sleep.

Good night Love, Good night baby. Please know that daddy loves you so much, just as much as I love mommy. Mahal ko kayo.

Good night daddy.

For the first time after many months we both had peaceful sleep in each other's arms.