little • jacob sartorius

🎀 THIRTEEN - flashback

the school bell rang signalling class dismissal. emily grabbed her backpack and slid it on both her arms and she then exited the room without even saying a goodbye to her favourite science teacher, the woman knitting her eyebrows at the sudden snobbing.

"emi, you still want to go to the café?" jacob smiled at his girlfriend as she looked up.

the younger just nodded avoiding jacob's hand that was asking to hold her's.

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"can you tell me what happened at the past few days we lost contact to each other?" jacob asked as he placed the tray on the round coffee table and sat.

emily looked down playing with her sleeve. she don't really want someone to know what happened to her and what's making her feel like this. but since emily have him now and she trust him, this is the first time she'll be talking about her problem.

tears were daring to escape from her doe eyes. jacob placed his hand on her chin and made her look into his hazel eyes, emily lost all control and letting her tears stream down her face.

"i-its my brother.." she stuttered out.

"-he came back."

emily was silently watching her favorite cartoon in her room, her petite body drowning itself from all the plushies that was sitting on her bed, completely oblivious of what's happening outside her fantasy land.

"don't you ever lay a hand on your sister!" elise screamed as she tried to stop emily's brother, noah, from barging in her room.

emily heard the screams, her heart racing not knowing what to do.

noah stormed inside the girl's door, emily jumped, her heart racing as she tried to beg her older brother to leave her alone.

but that didn't make him listen. the male grasped her throat with his filthy hands, the younger girl clawing at his arms uselessly as she tried gasping for air. he slammed her against the wall, causing her head to spin but that didn't stop her squeaks of begging.

the male just chuckled at the helpless girl as he lifted her up from the ground. the girl's once fast beating heart is now slowing in tempo.

"is little emily going to die? gladly." noah cooed fakely as he mocked the girl.

noah felt a really painful sting on his back, he let go of emily and looked behind him only to see his mother holding the knife that was just in his hand minutes ago.

"what the fuck did you do!" he screamed as the pain went worse and surged through his body, blood streaming, a wave of shock drew on his face.

"i told you to leave her the fuck alone!" elise screamed as she pointed the knife towards him and he took a step back.

noah swung his fist and landed it on his mother's abdomen causing her mouth to fall agape and clutch on her stomach in pain, "dont you understand that you both deserve this? this fucking girl is the reason dad killed himself, because of the stress this bitch gave to him!" noah sput at her mother before leaving the room, his blood seeping through his shirt.

elise fell on her knee as she tried to regain her breath, soon crawling to her daughter who passed out.

emily's tears were streaming down as waterfalls would when she finished telling her boyfriend what happened. she can still feel the pain of noah's hand on her throat.

jacob was worried and concerned, feeling bad that her girlfriend had to go through that shit.

jacob was hesitating to ask the question he'd been longing to ask because it might hurt the girl more. but he needed answers. "babygirl, how about the cuts i saw on your stomach? was that because of him?" he questioned, drawing small assuring circles on his girlfriend's palm.

she shook her head no, "no.. i was the one who did that.." she said looking up at the older. "i tried to hurt myself.. because all the pain my brother was giving me isn't enough, what he said was true. i am the reason my father killed himself, that i should be blamed."

"don't let that go through your head. i'm sure your father loves you, he was just tired of the world."

"you don't understand, jacob-" emily raised her voice, jacob's eye grew in shock because of the first time hearing his real name leave the girl's mouth.

"-he committed suicide because of stressing over me. we are running out of money just to cure my fucking mental illness!" emily's voice shook as she continued, "he had to take down his dream business because of bankruptcy and the root of all that is me."

jacob calmed her down and whispered comforting things to her. emily fighting herself to not slip away in little space.

she just hugged her boyfriend and smiled on his chest, feeling alot more better than she was. finally, she have someone who cares about her and will listen to her problems.

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a/n:

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a small summary of emily's situation:

before her father died, she has depression which explains why they need to cure her. because of mourning over her father and wanting to forget about what happened, she slipped into little space where she was 9 years old and carefree, but that doesn't mean she's not aware of her surroundings, causing her to have the mental disorder called "borderline personality disorder" (BPD) .

^^i wrote that because i think the way i wrote it kinda sucks and you guys might not under so i hope you took time reading it.