Ishq-e-khairaat ✔️

30| I Regret

DOUBLE UPDATE!

A/N:- I suggest you grab your popcorn and a box of tissues so that we can cry and watch the drama unfold together

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I stood frozen on my spot not knowing what to do, Zain's icy glare didn't help either and if he overheard my conversation with Zachariah then I was as good as dead. I want to cry now, want the ground to swallow me whole. My breathing hitched when he came towards me and caught my wrist.

'We've some talking to do' I gulped, there was anger laced in his tone maybe I was really going to die today. He dragged me much to my dismay I had to keep up with my steps, he took me to the terrace.

What are you afraid of Zooni? You didn't do anything wrong!

He let go of me once we reached the terrace, he took few breaths to calm down his anger and when he looked at me I felt my world crashing down. His eyes were wet, is he crying?!

'W-Why?' he asked and tried not to give in this time, this time I've to be strong I reminded myself.

'What do you mean Why? You were the one who dragged me here and I should be the one asking you this! What's happened to you and why are you behaving like this?'

'YOU WON'T TALK TO ME!' I flinched at his tone, 'I've been observing this whenever I try to talk to you, you end up ignoring me. At first I thought it was because you were stressed for your finals so I thought of giving you space. But after that you continued switching your path whenever I approached you so I came to a conclusion that maybe you were upset with me about something I couldn't figure out. You started hanging out with Zachariah a lot and it's infuriating that you gave him the permission to persue you. You know how he is yet how could you do that? I thought, I thought we were friends Zooni we shared everything with each other, especially our secrets yet you did exactly the opposite. Why didn't tell me Chanda? Why didn't you tell me you loved me? Why?' he voice broke in the end

Why is this happening to me? Why now when I was finally able to get up and find a way to myself. Why are you doing this to me Allah? Tell me it's a dream a bad dream

Tears finally spilled through my eyes my voice quevering as I spoke, 'Why does it matter now Zain? What good would it have done me if I told you this? Why are you even asking me this question when you love my sister? And why would have I told you about my feelings knowing you won't return them back to me, even if I would've have told you then maybe for the sake of our friendship or out of pity you'll marry me but how will I live knowing you won't be happy with me? Even if it hurts I want to see your happiness Zain if not with me then with someone who you really love. Amirah is perfect for you, she'll keep you happy. I don't want to-' I hissed in pain as Zain grabbed my shoulders pulling me closer to him until our faces are merely inches apart

' Happiness? Love? ' he spat, 'YOU make me happy Zooni you don't have any idea how lost I felt when you wouldn't talk to me. And as far as love is concerned I never said I loved Amirah, yes I did mistook my expectations for a ideal life partner but being away from you made me realized how much you mean to me Zooni, you want my happiness then why did you go away from me? Zooni I, I Love you Chanda I love you as a man loves a women please don't push me away'

He sobbed clutching onto my shoulders for support but I was standing numb, my emotions jumbled I couldn't think straight don't know what to do

Should I say him I love you too? Should I surrender myself back to him? Or should I continue with the path I planned on taking and bring myself together

I don't know what to do

'ZAIN' both Zain and I snapped out attention towards the new commer, my world was falling, the look on Amirah's face made me feel like a culprit of committing a crime.

Was falling in love with Zain really a sin?

Zain cursed under his breath and looked back at me, 'This is not over' he gave me one last look and followed Amirah

I cried out loud as my feet wobbled and I fell on the ground

I REGRET FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU ZAIN

Iss qadar dard main hoon
Koi haal pooche na
Jis mohabbat ke izhaar
Karne ko betaab tha ye dil
Ab khaali sa lag raha hai
Aaj bhi ishq Mein majboor hoon
Ajeeb si khashmakash hai ye
Ab Usku chunu ya apne Aap ko?

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Guys I really need your comments on this chapter. I want to know how you feel about Zain's confession and what do you think Zooni needs to do? Feel free to express you thoughts here!

And yes we are back with Shayaris!