In Between Maybes

Chapter 17

Weeks had passed and everything went by smoothly. 

Actually, I am now preparing something for tomorrow's special occasion. 

It's our monthsary!

I cannot help, but to feel kilig every time I think of it! This is my first time celebrating monthsary with someone. Of course, Ethan's my first kaya!

I plan to surprise him tomorrow after our quiz bee competition. I'd buy him a cake or I don't know. Any food, maybe? I haven't asked him what his favorite, eh, so I'd buy anything na lang siguro. He'd love it naman for sure. Dapat lang, 'no! Galing sa'kin, eh.

I pouted when I realized something. Is he even aware that it is our monthsary? I haven't heard him talk about it. Did he forget? Or hindi niya gustong celebrate 'yon? Oh my God! Would he be mad if he found out that I want us to celebrate our first month? Or maybe he's just really busy with school works? Gano'n siguro? I can't help but overthink! Kakainis!

"You're going home already?" I asked Brian when I saw him fixing his things. 

"Hindi pa ba tayo uuwi?" I shrugged.

"Ah, so we're done reviewing na?"

"Yes, Av. May gusto ka pa bang pag aralan?" He chuckled.

"Wala, no! Sige na, you go. "

"Ikaw?"

"I'll wait for Ethan. "

"Susunduin ka?"

"I'll message him. Sige na, ingat!"

"Alright. You take care, too. "

"Thanks!"

"I'll see you tomorrow? " I arched my eyebrow.

"Why? Anong meron? " I humorously asked him.

"What?" He asked me back, confused.

"What?"

"Competition na. "

"Really?!" I acted as if I am shocked. 

"Hindi bagay, " He winced at me.

"Ew. Kj mo naman! Sige na nga. See you na lang tomorrow!"

He then laughed and left me.

I sighed as I looked at the letter I am writing.

Would he read this? I didn't even know nga kung binasa niya 'yung letter na bigay ko nu'ng birthday niya. What if magsawa siya kabibigay ko ng letter? What if nacocornyhan pala siya every time na nagbibigay ako ng letters?

Pero sabi naman sa mga nababasa ko sa social media na boyfriends do appreciate these kinds of things, eh. Pero gano'n din kaya ang boyfriend ko? What if ayaw niyang nagbabasa?

Oh my God. He likes business, 'di ba? That means na he likes numbers! Tapos eto ako, bigay nang bigay sa kan'ya ng letters!

The thought of him recoiling with my letters hurts the hell out of me! Paano kung hindi niya lang pala masabi na ayaw niya sa letters ko kasi nahihiya siya? Should I stop giving them now? Should I settle na lang for cake and a necklace?

I was interrupted when I heard my phone rang.

Ethan!

I again pouted when I saw his name. Nakakainis, feeling ko talaga ayaw niya ng letters ko, eh. Awayin ko kaya? Ugh, stop it, Av! Ask mo lang! Bakit kailangang awayin? Nothing has been confirmed pa naman, ah?

"Hi, " I answered.

"Where are you?" 

"Third floor. Studying, " I lied. I'm sorry, baby! I'll make bawi after I finish writing this one. I don't know if I'd still continue, though. Bahala na.