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Group chat: char, Dix, addi, ness ness, mads, Kaykay

Ness ness: UHMM-

mads: WHA-

Ness ness: Dixie what's going on with u and Noah?????

Dix: idk what's going on with u and huddy Nessa?

char: guys let's all calm down for a min

mads: no honestly Dixie what's up?

Dix: he's just a good friend alright?

Ness ness: are you sure that's it?

Dix: I like Noah.

Dix: a lot. And Bella only ever seems to hurt him which is awful to watch. He fucking was crying the other day over her which is honestly a waste of time, she obviously doesn't love him if she's leaving him so often

char: Dixie that's fucked up. Don't say that shit

Addi: Dixie wtf? She needed space to get her head straight

Dix: well if she's his "soulmate" then her head wouldn't be so lost now would it?

Mads: seriously Dixie DONT fuck with them

Dix: that's rich mads. You and Jaden still seem to fuck quite often for not being together

Ness ness: what pole was shoved up ur ass and why was it shoved so far?

Kaykay: listen Dixie. Bella left because her head space wasn't right. She loves Noah more than she loves anything or anyone. She couldn't breathe in that relationship because people were breathing down her neck. It's pretty fucked up for you to just slide right in and try to take Noah. Bella still loves him more than you could probably even fathom. Don't talk shit when you don't have full insight of what's going on. Honestly it's petty of you to bring up all this shit with huddy and ness when that was forgiven. And with Mads and Jay you know they're working on getting things patched up. So do us a favor and fuck off

Dix: it's crazy to me that u'll defend a person who is hurting the most amazing guy. I make him happy. I care about him. Bella doesn't seem to give a shit. She cares more about her self than she does about him

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{Bella's POV}

I couldn't even comprehend the pain coursing through every part of me. I couldn't breathe. Everything just hurt so bad. Thinking about Noah brought the aching pain back. Thinking about him being happy with someone that wasn't me, made me sick to the stomach.

I screamed, shoving my head against my pillow. I chucked my phone across the room, having it shatter. I grabbed random things and just began the meltdown that was now common for the people near me to hear or see. I threw things across the room. Cups, books, picture frames, clothes, makeup.

I hit my hand against my head, begging it to stop hurting me. This was my brain. This was my heart. Causing me this awful pain. This unbearable feeling. I couldn't breathe. Even being away form Noah.

Dixie saying how miserable I had made him. I let out a loud scream. Hoping that someone, anyone could make the pain stop. Kayla has given up trying to get me to be "okay" a couple days ago. It was almost routine for these breakdowns to occur.

My legs finally gave out. And I collapsed to the floor. I stared at the ceiling. The tears had stopped. The pain had stopped. But I felt nothing. I could barely feel the ground beneath me. I couldn't feel anything emotionally. It had all just stopped.

I got up, walking out of my room and rushing down the stairs to the door. "Hey where are-" the door spamming was heard before the rest of Kayla's question. I made it to my car, still no feeling.

And I drove. How far? I couldn't tell you, because truthfully I didn't know. How long was I out? I couldn't tell you that either. But there was one thing that I could tell you. And that was about the blinding light headed straight for me on the highway. The screeching of the tires against the road was deafening. But the pouring rain was still heard, until there was nothing left to hear. And I was surrounded with a dark engulf of nothingness.