Eyes Who Cried Memories

Eighteenth

Eighteenth

"Leave and run because no matter where you go.. I'll always find my way to you, I'll find my way back to my home"

My heart aches big time as his words repeated on my head.

It's like I've been slapped multiple times just to wake my sleeping senses.

The only thing Joong knows is to love me, yet I'm here, always doing shits that will hurt him. My baby, my softest boy. He doesn't deserve this kind of treatment from me.

I turned my head to look at him, tears continued to fall down like I have a big factory of it inside my body.

I can't gather my thoughts. My strong will to leave him earlier is now crumpling into pieces.

"My heart will always stay with you" with that, I can't stop myself anymore. I completely realize all the shits I said earlier.

I just find myself running back to him before I gave him a tight hug.

"Sorry Joong.. I am so sorry" I cried so loud as I hug him so tight.

I'm stupid. The idea of leaving him is pure stupidity.

"You told me you'll leave" he whispered with his broken voice.

I immediately shook my head.

"I won't leave now.. please forgive me Joong. I won't leave now.. don't make me leave now.. I can't" I panicked as I remembered how he ordered me to leave earlier.

It's painful.

"I'm so afraid earlier Nine.. it's scarier than being shot at the back. Seeing you walking away from me... that thing, I can never stand" he cried hard too.

I pulled myself from the hug.

He's crying again because of me. My stupidity broke him again.

Why the hell did I think that leaving him is a good idea?! No..

Leaving him will only make the both of us suffer. Leaving him is the most stupid idea I had in my entire existence.

If there will be troubles in the future, we will fight it together.

"Don't do that again" he whispered as he look straight into my eyes like he's doing some hypnotize.

I hugged him again, this time, my chin is resting on his head and his head is pressed on my chest. I brushed his hair so he'll calm down.

"Sorry Joong.. my mind was chaotic. Mr. Arthur's words affected my brain earlier, I thought.. it's much better to leave. Without me, your life will be back to normal" I whispered, admitting all my mistakes.

"It would never be the same without you. I suffered a lot for years of losing you, I don't want that anymore. I'm scared to face everything alone again.."

My brave Archen is scared of losing me. For him, it's the scariest thing. Scarier than death itself.

"My mind is clear now Joong—" my words are cutted when the door suddenly opened. 

There stood my parents and Joong's, together with P'Mes.

Everyone looks so shocked as they stare at Joong who is now awake.