SwaySway x Reader! (Female)

𝑾𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒇𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒘𝒐 𝒅𝒖𝒄𝒌𝒔... II

If you don't remember where the last part left off, Buhdeuce and Y/N were cuddling on the couch, and Buhdeuce was sitting on her stomach, just looking into her eyes and thinking about how lucky he is.

P.S- sorry for the rant in the previous part, I was just trying to explain how the show could have been or could come back better than before.
I still "loaf" Breadwinners though.

Buhdeuce's POV:

I love how her eyes sparkle from the TV light, I really don't know why I get so lost when I stare into them. Her lips and fingers are so soft, and it felt pretty magical when she gently touched my chest earlier. The guilt still fills me from what happened to me, and the fact that she saw it made me feel a little weird at first... only because it is an insecurity of mine. Though, I got to caress her boobs a bit and that was amazing- it made my little 'problem' a lot worse, who can blame me..? I loved licking and sucking them, Y/N's breathing became slightly heavier and I could feel her heart pounding as my hands were on her chest. I wonder if that means she was liking it..?
Wondering because I breathed harder and my heart pounded so hard that I swear it could have burst right out of my chest that time she ran her finger down my bare torso... so maybe hers does the same thing when someone touches her like that?
But- that makes me proud if she liked it, and I would do anything she wanted, as long as it would make her feel good.
I just hope I'm not taking this whole thing too far, and I hope she actually has feelings for me. I mean- I don't want her to be doing this out of pure pity and not because she actually wants me closer with her. Because, if she told me that she didn't want this, I would totally understand .
As far as this love/lust feeling that I have goes, I'd say I'm no longer a ladies man, I'm her man, for her- and only for her.

It's amazing how I can remember everything while continuing to stare into her eyes, but I wonder if I'm stalling...? Does she want me to make the first move?
I'm just a little worried that if I make any kind of move, she'll get nervous- and I'm still shy about taking off my clothes because I'm insecure about my looks. Though, I felt fine with her removing my shirt. My beauty is all in the face and chest, nowhere else... and that's why I'm afraid.
The reason that I was thinking about taking my clothes off is because she told me in her cute little voice that she wanted to see what 'it' tastes like, and I would love if I could just feel that... I don't think of myself as a horny, perverted, disgusting type of guy, but for someone as beautiful and sweet as Y/N to offer- it just makes me want it so bad.
Y/N is my obsession right now... and my first ever obsession over a girl... I would give anything to let her take my innocence and virginity. Am I crazy?
I only want what she wants, my own desires mean nothing to me when I could be making her happy instead.
I feel like I'm a good guy, but I wonder if she thinks that I'm a good guy too.?

The fact that I still have a hard-on, and that she's even allowing me to sit on her stomach with it makes me feel more comfortable because she doesn't seem angry. I would love to kiss her again, right here, right now... but I'm scared to make a move.
...
I face my fears and lean in towards her with a smile,,, then Y/N starts to lean forward a bit too, so I grab onto her shoulders as our beaks meet in the middle...
She closes her eyes and I do the same.
As we engage in kissing, we move slowly and sloppily, I suck her moist lips in between mine ever so teasingly but give no tongue. Savoring this kiss is my goal so I'm taking it slow ;)

I give a lick to her chin and moan a bit, I'm still trying to be quiet but it's hard to resist making little noises from feeling good.
Y/N picks me up off of her stomach, and then she pins me to the side of the couch in a playful manor.
Imagine that she just holds me down and makes out with me like this... I'd die for it right now.

She stares directly into my eyes while leaning over me.
"What is it that you want, Deucer...? Tell me." She asks with a whisper in my ear and squeezes my hand tighter.
From that, I blush and whimper softly
"Mmmmph.."
"J-just... p-please show me what you can do.." I answer, sounding kinda lewd for her.
She's so good at this... no wonder SwaySway was quick to take her as soon as he got to know her- even though I've had a secret crush since the beginning... ugh.