No strings attached

Part sixteen

Waking up Hotch was now your favorite thing to do, the way his dark hair was messy, his eyes still puffy and his morning voice, it was like waking up in heaven. Too bad this morning you couldn't appreciate it as your alarm rang you roll out of bed and walk to the kitchen to make coffee.

"There's a towel for you in the bathroom if you want to shower" you say as he approaches you kissing your forehead

"You can go first, I need to grab my go bag downstairs" his morning voice really is like music. After you both were ready you head to the BAU, Aaron wanted you to ride with him but you thought it was better if you drove alone.

A week later you sit on your desk, still sore from last night, when you and Aaron didn't get any sleep like always, and start working on your paperwork before any new cases popped up. They didn't, so you focused on finishing any pendent paperwork you might have, glancing over to Hotch's office every now and then.

You see Aaron go grab coffee and are about to follow him when Derek leans over your desk.

"Where we going tonight?" you try and think of an excuse "come on baby girl I miss you. Don't get me wrong I love Emily but you are my best drinking partner and recently all you've been doing is blowing me off" he pouts

You suddenly feel bad, you have been spending every minute of your free time with Aaron and you didn't even think about your friends, you see that Hotch is looking at you.

"I'm sorry" you say "let me make it up to you, tonight we'll go wherever you want."

"Hey, since you apparently can't stay away from him, why don't you invite your Mr. Loverboy to join us" this sentence catches the rest of the team's attention

"If Morgan gets to meet your boyfriend, so do we" Spencer complaints and Emily agrees

"Y/n, I didn't know you were dating" Hotch joins the conversation with a stupid smirk on his face

"That's because I'm not" you tease him but notice his jaw tensed up a little too much "If you don't stop being a pain in my ass I swear to god I won't go out with you ever again" you joke and Derek laughs.

You got ready was too early and were now sitting on your living room waiting for Morgan as your mind flies back to Aaron, you wonder if you should have teased him like that, even though it wasn't a lie, you weren't dating right? You decide to text him just to make sure everything is fine but before you can finish typing someone knocks on the door.

"Aaron?" you smile at the coincidence but your smile fades as he storms inside

"Was that really necessary?" his tone makes you realize everything was actually not fine "was that just to make me jealous? Or you didn't want to lose the opportunity to fuck someone else tonight? I'm sure Morgan would jump at the possibility." He is now yelling at you, increasing your own frustration.

"Are you fucking kidding me? Do you really think that low of me?" you see him soften a bit but you were seriously offended "I said that because I wasn't sure what the answer was, it's not like we ever made it clear did we?" you feel the urge to cry but Derek texts you to say he is outside.

"I'm leaving" you storm off, a little too dramatically.

"You okay baby girl?" Morgan asks seeing you enter the car tensely, you nod and try and wipe Hotch away from your thoughts.

You slam another tequila shot, at this point you have even lost count of how many they were. You were barely able to walk or think straight but at least you weren't thinking about Hotch, your not boyfriend, Morgan looks at you clearly worried before dismissing a blonde girl he was talking to.

"Baby girl" he orders another beer and a bottle of water before moving his attention back to you "what the hell is wrong with you?"

"I love him" you spit out, too drunk to control the words that are now coming out of your mouth "but he doesn't love me. He only wants to have me around so he can fuck me, and now he is jealous of my friends, how can he be jealous? We are not a couple, he made that clear many times. And stupid me still fell for him."

Derek puts a hand on your knee "I think I better take you home" he stands up and you lean onto him for balance "If he doesn't see he's got an amazing girl by his side he can only be blind. Plus, I can always kick his ass if you want me to" you giggled, if only he knew he just offered to kick his boss' ass...

He leads you upstairs since you couldn't really do it yourself, laughing every time you'd trip on your own feet. "I love you my sweet chocolate thunder" you giggle "I mean it, thanks for taking care of me."

"Whatever you need princess, now go get some sleep." Before you go he takes your phone away from your hands "I'm not gonna give you a chance to do something stupid. You'll get it back tomorrow."

"I hate youuu" you didn't hate him, obviously, he was like your brother, always taking care of you. It was like this ever since you came to the team, he had taken you like a little sister, you loved him.

You lay on the bed and silently curse that Morgan took your phone, you really wanted to drunk dial Aaron's number. You wanted to yell at him until he used his lips to shut you up, then you wanted him to fuck you until you couldn't think straight. The effect Hotchner has on you was bizarre, every aspect of him turned you on but more than that he made you fall for him, the only thing you promised yourself you wouldn't do. You felt like a fucking teenager.

You woke up the the morning and Derek was dead asleep on the couch "wake up baby boy, we have a case" he groans but gets ready and you two drive to the BAU. As you pull up in the parking lot you see Aaron, his eyes narrow when they see who was by your side.