No strings attached

Part twenty seven

You wake up in Hotch's bed Monday morning, but once again you don't feel like getting up, it had been like this for the past couple of days, you had no motivation whatsoever and you felt tired all the time. You decide to go home, maybe a change of houses would make you feel a little better so you get in your car and go home, immediately stepping in the shower and picking an outfit for work. You enter the parking lot only to see Aaron pulling up, he looks at you clear worry flashing through his eyes.

"Hey what happened? I woke up and you were gone" he says pulling you in for a quick kiss

"I just need some new clothes so I went home" he raises an eyebrow, knowing this is not the whole truth but thankfully the elevator door opened "good luck on your first day back" you say running to your desk leaving behind a very confused Aaron Hotchner

"We have a case" JJ says raising a file and you both walk to the round table

"Aaron!" Dave smiles as the unit chief enters the room "is good to have you back my friend"

"Yeah man, we missed you" Morgan adds and the whole team cheers before Penelope steps in to discuss the case

"3 attacks in public places in Kansas" pictures flash on the screen "Our unsub is shooting people in the middle of crowded places, doing a very good job hiding in plain sight. Two parks and an outdoor restaurant 3 dead in each one of the attacks"

"This shots are extremely precise" Reid licks his bottom lip in thought "he knows what he's doing. Probably has military training" you all nod in agreement

"We'll discuss more on the jet, we leave in 40" Hotch gets up buttoning his suit and everyone does the same however as soon as you get up nausea takes over you so you run to the restroom, you get in a stall but once you do the feeling goes away so you sit on the floor trying to gather your thoughts.

There was a tiny voice saying there was only one explanation but you ignored it, there has to be something else, if by the end of the week you didn't get better you would go get checked up by a doctor. But for now, all you could do was focus on the case, and on avoiding Hotch.

It was late night when you delivered the profile so Aaron decided it would be best to go to the Hotel so you jumped on Emily's car and left with her, he called asking you to handle the check in so that's what you did. There were four rooms so it would usually mean that you and Hotch would be sharing and Rossi would be alone but you didn't want that.

"Em, can I stay with you and JJ?" you ask in a low voice so nobody could hear

"Of course, but why? Trouble in paradise?" before you can answer Hotch reaches for your hand

"Ready to go?"

"Actually, Emily wants me to stay with her tonight so we can catch up on a couple things ok?" he looks slightly disappointed but then he smiles

"Sure. Goodnight" he walks away and you let out a breath you didn't even know you were holding.

The next day you went back to Quantico, JJ and Emily had pressured you to tell you what was wrong but you couldn't talk about it, not until you were sure. You also had not gotten much better, you still felt tired and sick out of the blue. Not to mention it was starting to affect work, you were the last one in the office because you could barely focus on paperwork.

"Hey" Hotch smiles seeing you "I'm almost done here than we can go home" you shake your head

"Actually, I kinda have to go home" you take your bag and give him a quick kiss before walking to the elevator "I love you"

For the rest of the week you avoided him, he tried talking to you but you said you were just sorting a couple family matters that's why you needed to be home, he didn't really believe you and was clearly worried. So much that he called Emily help him.

You were a mess, finally deciding to accept the only explanation for what was going on had to be true. You sit on your couch a complete mess and cry until you hear a knock on the door.

"y/n, it's me" Emily says "please talk to me" since you didn't answer she unlocked the door with her spare key and completely froze when she saw you. You are so desperate you don't even try to think of an excuse

"Em, I think I might be pregnant" tears stream down your face, it's not like you didn't want kids but right now was not the time. "And if I am, I don't know what to do! Aaron will probably dump me cause he already has a kid and we've been together for less than a year. And then I would have to leave the BAU and be a single mom and ruin my dream job" you are barely making sense, the words roll out of your mouth without control

"Calm down ok?" Prentiss holds you in her arms "First of all, Hotch would never leave you for this. Secondly, I thought you were in the pill"

"I am, that's why I didn't want believe this but I've been feeling tired. And sick every morning out of nowhere. I don't know what to do"

"How about we just go buy a test? I know you want to ignore this but you have to find out. Well go from there and I'll be with you no matter what" you hug her like your life depended on it. She gets up "I'll go buy it and I'll be right back. Do you want me to call him?"

"Not yet. Let's do it once you come back" she nods and leaves, returning shortly after with a drugstore bag in one hand and her phone on the other

"He is on his way do you want to wait or?"

"No. I can do it alone. Besides it's better if I know the result before he gets here" you take the bag and race to the bathroom. So many things going through your head but the biggest one being will Aaron forgive you for not talking to him sooner?