No strings attached

Part twenty three

Fluorescent hospital lights are the first thing you see when you open you eyes, the echo of the explosion is substituted by the beeping of the machines and your head feels like it was smashed by a rock. A nurse walks in and smiles when she sees you're awake, checking your vitals and stepping outside the room to warn those who were waiting for you.

"Thank god you're okay" JJ walks in with watery eyes "You need to have some rest y/n, I will stay right here by your side" you don't really understand what is going on so you lay your head back and sleep. In your dream you see Aaron, he was hurt, you saw fire and then nothing you jump awake, all the memories flooding you head like an overfloating river.

"JJ" and the blonde comes near you "Hotch?" your voice is weak, a clear representation of how your body feels.

"We don't really know. He was taken into surgery but the doctor said his chances were low" tears stream down her face and you start crying as well

This was you fault, you shouldn't have left him, the pain is unbearable you just want it to stop, you wish you could trade places, you wouldn't mind dying for him.

Two hours later a doctor came by to clear you, you had only a couple minor injuries and since your memory came back and your brain scans came out fine you were good to go. Your mother came to pick you up, you decided to give hating her a break since she was probably scared to death.

"I am not going anywhere" the team looks at you and your mom insists "Mother I really don't feel like fighting with you again, I am staying here no matter how long it takes, no matter what the outcome is, I will be here." You sit on the very uncomfortable hospital chair and bury your head on your hands.

"Let's take shifts" Emily says looking at JJ who was sleeping on her shoulder "I'll take her home and will be back in a while ok?"

"No problem, Morgan and Reid you should also go, I will stay here with y/n" Rossi says.

You told your mom to go home and you and Rossi just sat there until the Italian broke the silence

"It's not your fault bella, he asked you to leave, you followed an order"

"I should have stayed, I should've looked more, the unsub was in there and I didn't see him. If he dies..." you start crying again

"He will be fine, Aaron is tough" he places a comforting hand on your knee.

"Aaron Hotchner?" a doctor calls out you, JJ and Emily raise your heads, already bracing yourselves for the worst "He made it out of surgery, the bullet was successfully removed and no vital organs took a real damage. However, the next few hours are crucial, he is unconscious and we hope we will wake up soon." You feel a little better so you decide to at least go home and shower, you were really tired but you pushed it away at least until you heard news about Aaron's state.

"You shouldn't go back, you need to rest hunny. Your friends will call if something chances" you mom says, eyes full of apology, as you try and reach the door

"I will rest once he is out of there mom. Do you know why he is in a coma? Because he knew we were ambushed and he tried to protect me. The man I love is in the verge of dying and because of you the last thing we talked about was if he was using me for sex or not. I am going back and I suggest you stay here and work on your apology." You slam the door and run back to the hospital.

You needed to be there, if there was a slightest chance of him waking up you would be there to greet him.

Hotch POV

I was in a park but I don't remember exactly how I got there, y/n and Jack were with me and all of a sudden, I see a figure walk my way

"Haley" I look at y/n "Watch Jack for me. I love you two" I don't really know why I said that, maybe deep down I had a feeling I wouldn't see them again. I placed a kiss on their heads before walking over to my ex wife, she hugs me and we sit on a bench to watch the woman I was in love with playing with my son.

"I'm ready to go" I say but Haley doesn't move

"You love her" Haley says "I'm happy for you Aaron, I really am, which is why you can't come with me. It's not your time yet, you have a life ahead of you, one of us needs to be there for Jack and it's you. You are an amazing father and you deserve a second chance at love." I look at her

"I can't, I need to go with you"

"No Aaron, please. You need to wake up" I see y/n and Jack walk further away from us

"Haley, I'm tired"

"I know, but you have to fight. Wake up Aaron, stay with you son, stay alive." Her image starts to get blurry "Good luck Aaron, tell Jack I'm always taking care of you both" as she said that she was gone.

All I saw was a big flash of light in front of me, I heart beeping and I felt pain in my abdomen.

"Mr. Hotchner, you're awake"

Y/N POV

You were beginning to loose hope 8 hours had passed since you had that update about Hotch's state, you didn't really know to whom but you prayed that he would wake up, that he'd be ok soon. You eventually drifted of to sleep only to wake up with Spencer almost jumping of happiness.

"He's awake" he said a smile flashing through his face "the doctors said he is awake and well. He will spend a little more time in there just so they can monitor him but we can see him in the morning.

He was alive, I took Spencer into a big hug and it was like the world became colorful again, Aaron would be okay and that is really all that matters to me.

A/n: I don't know what came over me while writing this but I kinda like it so enjoy!