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Chase x Nick🌺

"Schizophrenia"

Nick Austin had a secret. One he should've told everyone by now, but for some reason he hadn't. He remembered why when he had an attack.

Nick hated telling people he had schizo, because then he was treated differently, and not in a good way. If you told someone you have cancer they'd get all sympathetic and say something like "i can't imagine how hard it is, stay strong", if you told someone you were schizophrenic they'd take a step away from you and say "you aren't gonna kill me, are you?".

Nick knows because it'd happened to him before. 

He'd gotten diagnosed when he was 12, admitting to his parents that he saw—and heard—things that weren't there. When they went to the doctor he had been told he had schizophrenia. He was required to bring a note into school to tell his teachers, and all the sudden they were a little more concerned about him.

He'd told a couple of his friends and then his friends had told others, and then those people told their parents. Then he was basically isolated. His friends suddenly weren't talking to him, everyone kept a distance away from him and he didn't know why. Even his parents were a little on edge for a while.

About a year later he realized why, serial killers. Its always mentioned that they had schizophrenia or could've possibly had it and never gotten diagnosed. And it hurt, that people thought he would kill them just because he had a mental illness. 

When he got into highschool he made a best friend, and he only told his best friend once they were in the comfort of his house, hanging out overnight in a sleepover. The first thing he said was "I imagine that's really hard to deal with. What should I do if you have an attack, do I treat it like a panic attack or walk away"

And Nick cried, because that was the first time someone had concerned how hard it was to deal with schizophrenia and asked what to do if he ever had an attack, rather than being scared or asking if he would kill them.

He still kept in touch with CJ, even after he dropped out of highschool, the only person that understood.

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Nick's schizophrenia was pretty mild to deal with. Not because he rarely saw things—he saw stuff all the time—but it was nice stuff. Most of the time it was stuff like candies, or bright flashes of life, maybe friends or family that were standing there, a lot of times it was just shadows. Sometimes it was worse, all the sudden the devil was standing right in front of him, screaming at him, calling him a faggot and awful terms. Maybe it was werewolfs or vampires or bullies or ominous shadows creeping up behind him. But he rarely had attacks, where all the sudden everything was going haywire and nothing looked right. Those mostly happened when he was isolated.

One really good thing, Adrian. Adrian wasn't real. She was another imaginary character, talking to him when he was bored, laying beside him on the bed while he watched a show. She was pretty, biracial with curly hair that was bleached blue at the ends, one of his best friends. It was a good thing they could communicate without opening their mouths because if someone hear him talking to Adrian they'd probably be confused, conversating with a supposedly empty wall.

He hadn't told his new friends, nor fans, that he was schizophrenic. He was scared that they wouldn't accept him. 

Which leads him to the interview that went to shit.

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The interview was going good, Chase, Ryland, Thomas, Alex and Nick had all gotten together for a 30-45 minute Q&A to answer a couple questions. The interviewer was sitting there interviewing (because that's his fucking job) and Adrian was sitting in a (imaginary) chair and making funny faces, goofing around.