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Nikkis POV

They took my to the hospital we took an ambulance there and everything was a blur. I stopped freaking out in the car and now I don't feel anything. I've been in this position before. They cut the strings off of my pants and hoodie and I sit in this room with a chair in it and cameras I think. I was waiting for someone to talk to me or something

I don't know how long passed but someone walks in the room with a clip board. Oh yeah I also got treated for my cuts I made I have bandages. Pretty sure the people who walked in the room were like therapist and like psychiatrists and they stand infront of me I have my knees to my chest and they start asking me questions

"So Nikki what are you diagnosed with?" The doctor asks and I start listing it off

"Anxiety, depression, ptsd, body dysmorphia, anorexia" I list off without emotion and they write something down

"Do you have suicidal thoughts or do you have a plan".

"Mmhm" I nod. My plan was just to cut my arms fully

"What was it" they ask and without looking at them I just hold my arm out and draw a line with my finger all the way down and they nod

"Do you take care of yourself like When was the last time you ate" they ask and I don't say anything but just write something down.

"Would you consider yourself harmful to others or yourself"

"Myself yeah" I nod

They ask a few more questions then they leave the room to like talk to my mom or something. It's also like late at night. The rest of it is all just a blur and I'm like admitted to the psychiatric ward. Their taking me there now because it's attached to the hospital so their just taking me there and apparently my moms gonna bring me a few things tomorrow because it's really late now. It's like 3am

I was taken to this random room where I was gonna wait and these nurses are like gonna evaluate me or some shit. They make me take off my clothes and they like write things down. They look at my scars and stuff and taking my vitals and taking blood tests and other stuff

"Ok so you can put your clothes back on but you can't wear your bra because for safety reasons" they say and I put my clothes back on and take my bra off. They explained me these rules and this stupid shit it's not like I haven't heard this before.

"So your parents or parent are gonna come here tomorrow to sign forms and drop you off some clothes and other things then we'll set you up with a treatment plan is that ok with you" the lady asks and she's pretty nice so I just nod

"Ok so this is your room your stuff will go here. You share a bathroom with the other girls here so this is your bed well show you your schedule after your parents come tomorrow" the nurse says

"Right now is time to sleep you have a roommate she's asleep over there. Follow the rules remember them and you'll get your things tomorrow" she says before leaving the room. I get into bed and just fall asleep

The next morning I wake up by the nurses waking us up. My roommate she's pretty. She had blonde hair that's all I saw but she's pretty.

We got ready there's actually a lot of girls here they all look like friends and shit. Some of them were staring at me for some reason and whispering. They already gave me all my toiletries and stuff but I'm allowed to get my own hair products

It's breakfast time. There's like 10 of us there In our little wing. We go to the cafeteria looking place I follow them and they get trays with food on them. Ok I'll just try to eat maybe I'll just have like a piece of toast. I sit at the end of the long table with all the girls sitting near me. Well they take a seat near me. I just play with my food taking little bites

"So what's your name" the blonde girl that's my roommate asks me and the rest of the girls are listening too

"Nicole what's yours " I mumble and they nod

"Mines Ang. So if you don't mind me asking how did you get here" she asks and I kinda hesitant

"Eh my mom made me" I shrug and they all nod

"You look familiar like I've seen you before but I don't know from where. By the way I'm Sofia" another girl says

"Oh... yeah I get that a lot"

"Are you by any chance famous. And I'm gabby" another one asks

"Eh" I shrug and they nod. I listen to what their saying as they eat. And I finish the toast after playing with it for a while

After breakfast is done the supervisors or some shit were like supervising right and they tell us we have group therapy. I remember that from when I was last at one of these hospitals but they make me stay back because my moms here. They take me to this room where I sit on the chair there's a table and bins

These nurses walk into the room with gloves on and a backpack also a folder with things in it

"Ok so Nicole Nicole Nicole. Your mom dropped off some things but were just going to go through them to make sure of your safety" the nurse says and I nod

They go through my sweaters their filled with crew necks, shirts I like like big shirts, sports bras, jogging pants but no string. Also some other things. There's one of charlis famous stuffed animal squishy things that I always steal from her. My glasses, a colouring book and also a empty sketch book, shampoo conditioner, blanket and pillow. also a knee brace....

"Wait why's that there" I speak up talking about the knee brace

"Your mom says you have to wear it for medical reasons" the nurse says and I cover my face with my hands as they hand it over to my to put it on

I put on the brace and hate it already

"Ok rules about that. I don't know if anyone told you but for everyone's safety we would like to ask you to wear long sleeves and pants because of your scars because we don't want to trigger others. But with that brace. Tell no one about it and when you go and take a shower hide it with your clothes so people don't touch it " the nurse explains and I nod

After like going through my things they sit me down and look at the folder

"Ok so this is your schedule. Wake up at 9:20, everyone takes there meds at 9:45, then breakfast at 10:00-10:45, lunch at 2:00-2:45, dinner at 5:00-6:00, snack at 8:00-8:30. Lights out 10pm. On mondays Wednesdays Fridays and Sundays is group therapy after breakfast. Also actives. Time to spend in your room. Time to spend in the common area. Time to spend in the gym upstairs. So just read the schedule and it'll show your therapy schedule and the meds your taking. Your taking 4 pills a day. Also here's a little kit" the nurse explains so I just nod

"Ok so but all these things in your room in your storage spots and the rest are in the common area" the nurse says as we get to my room. I put my things away and change my clothes going into the common area where the girls are talking and like colouring

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Ok I tried to make it as realistic as possible so please correct me if I'm wrong

Anyways gn everyone it's 4am and my head hurts anyways have a good day bye bye

Also how you linking the book?

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