Heartthrob J.H

Issues

Jadens POV morning time same day

I can't do this anymore I can't do anything right. I've fucked everything up my whole life my whole everything. I just want to be dead. Better off dead. I don't wanna live I fuck up everyone's lives. It's either I mess them up or they forget about me quick

"FUUUCK" I scream in anger throwing a pillow across the room

I need weed I need it. I go to my stash and I take a joint out. I grab the joint and light it rig hot away and smoke on the balcony.

Few hours later afternoons

I've had 3 beers and smoked a fully joint. I'm high and tipsy from the alcohol. I'm crying and crying throwing things around in anger I'm done with myself I'm fucking done with myself. How do people even put up with me.

"Jaden open the door" I hear the boys say once again they've been knocking on the door for about 4 times every hour but I don't answer them.

"FUCK OFF LEAVE ME ALONE" I yell. I go into my bathroom and look at myself in the mirror

I look like shit. Eyes red bloodshot red and looking sick. My small body I hate it so much. Truth is I have body figure issues and I can't even express how much I hate myself

I look at the mirror and turn to the wall and punch it. A hole in the wall now and my fist is bleeding and I know it's gonna leave a bruise but I could honestly care less. I go back into the bed face flat and I start just cry

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Griffs pov

"What do we do" I ask the boys as we sit in the living room

"I don't know. He doesn't want to talk to any of us we don't know what's wrong" josh sighs

"No shit Sherlock" ant rolls his eyes

"Who's the one person that he won't piss off on" Bryce says and we all think. Think long and hard

"Mads" Blake says

"You fucking stupid. That's gonna make it worse" Bryce says

"OH MY GOD, easy I know who" I say in realization

"Who" the boys say

"Nicole. Duh he wouldn't piss off on her I don't think and plus she's been through similar stuff lately. Charlis tweet was about that Sara girl calling Nikki her best friend" I say

"Wait. Nikki was bullied" josh says

"Well duh. Why do you think she called them high school fucking bully's" Bryce says

"Well go call Dixie" kio says and I dial dixies number

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Dixies POV

Nikki was driving around very happy to be driving she really doesn't have any fears. I would be scared to drive after what happened with ally a year ago

"Nikki what's your actual fear I know you have one" charli asks

"If I'm being completely honest, I don't really have any fears I don't care. My only slight fear is getting hurt in a relationship. That's why I haven't had that many boyfriends" she shrugs