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Nikkis POV

Fuck this actually. After sitting in my chair for a good 30 minutes staring at both of the posts I get up and walk to the bathroom. I've been fighting myself arguing back and forth talking out loud like a complete psychopath. I can't even no

I've done a few things actually. I wrote a death note and apology letter I broke my monitor and my extra one and my extra extra one. My keyboard too and my ring light. Shit. Now I gotta go buy a new one. Also I wrote a song. Hmm maybe I'll release it. Here's the death note

Dear the people who care

If I killed myself your probably reading this lol. Ha I'm don't with all these shitty ass bitches attacking me. I was leave let me leave. Hmm maybe I don't wanna die I just wanna disappear off of this toxic planet. I hate it here. I love living alone though. It's very fun. If I died please tell social media that I killed myself because I really just want them to know that haha. LOL bye sorry that I died shit. Wait give all my money to I don't know lol. This is kinda a joke I'm losing my mind sorry

Love Nicole

I've been fighting myself because I have the erg to cut. It's not a very good way to cope with issues but I don't care.  I go into my bathroom looking for a razor and I finally find one.

I break the razor and take the blade out of it and snap it in half. I was about to press it against my skin but then I thought

Wait I was doing so good

Oh well fuck it. who cares. I make about 6ish cuts on my arm. Blood dripping down my left arm. Wow look now I'm even more crippled haha

I'm not even crying I'll just deal with it. I rinse my cuts just because. Then I put on a black hoodie so if the blood drips you can't see it. Now I have to go buy 2 new monitors and a keyboard. This is so dumb.

I take a picture of all the broken monitors in the corner of my room and my keyboard too and I send the snap to Cody and I say this

Oops well might have to move yours and charlis "date" bc I broke my whole entire fucking set up. I'll let you know. If I fix it by tomorrow then yeah

I press send then pick up buggy who's sleeping on my bed. Ok I don't really walk buggy because she likes being carried unless she's very energetic and is playing around. She's a house dog she's potty trained and she pees on her peepad and shits on there too and I just clean it up

"Buggy buggy" I say carrying her down the stairs. She's very sleepy

I get all my things and leave the apartment and get in my car. I drive to bestbuy to buy 2 monitors and a keyboard.

Once I finished I went straight back home. Maybe I should make an apology video on live. That would be funny actually. I'll read the letter the letter was shit actually.

Once I get back to my house I go straight to my room carrying everything all at once to get there. I bring everything to my room and start opening all of it up

I start setting it all up and I go live to address everything

Live 127k👁🔴

User- big tittie
User- Nikki is thicc

"Hello everyone what's up" I say plugging in gym moniters

Dixiedamelio- answer your phone
User- LOL WHATS SHE DOING
User- hi

"Dixie I would actually prefer not to answer my phone at the moment" I say. My phone is blowing up with texts from my friends and everyone but Jaden. Damn he really did cheat.  I finished plugging in my 2 monitors to my pc and doing my key board too. Buggy's in my lap sleeping or whatever. And I start setting it up and everything

"Ok this isn't a family friendly Disney channel live stream so if you a child don't watch" I say

User- explain
User- mads is bad
User- I thought you looked hot

" ok let me read this apology letter I wrote" I say taking the paper out

"Dear people
You guys are weird. Your comments about my body make me uncomfortable. Please don't say that stuff. I'm sorry you had to see that inappropriate stuff it wasn't my fault really. I don't have those pictures Madison Lewis you fucking creep you probably would've had to asked my ex boyfriend who is a lying bitch for those pictures. He is also a creep too. I am super duper very sorry"

"That's my apology ish letter. But actually I don't fucking know where she got those. I don't even have those pictures. Not even on my eyes only on snap chat. On my eyes only mines filled with pictures off me and my friend named ally" I say

"This isn't gonna be a long live stream because I don't want it to but all I want to say is tiktokroom I'm reporting I'm sorry for that you had to see that I will be acting like life is normal except I'm pissed about a lot of things. I broke my fucking set up and smashed a few monitors and also blasted music. So sorry neighbour aka Dixie DAMELIO for playing loud music it was umm my fault dont sue"

User- lol
User- dixies your neighbour?
User- LOL NIKKI

"Madison you fucking bitch I DONT like you at all your mean. You watched my thumb be broken. You watched that guy and cheered him on while he bent my thumb all the way back so that it touched my wrist. Didn't get any help drove myself to the hospital. You've don't so many things that you know you shouldn't have and that was bad. You threatened to hurt me you told me to die. What else did you do. Hmm. You prank called me being rude. Got your fans to attack me for some unknown reason. Also you made some very rude comments. But that's just fucking weird that you asked my ex for those pictures. Like how creepy are you. I really do live in your head rent free though" I laugh

User- NIKKI I-
User- SKANKW EXPOSED
user- TIKTOKROOM WHERE YOU AT

"Anyways I'm getting off live to play Minecraft by myself so bye everyone" I wave getting off live

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Oh gosh diggety darn

This is pooping scary guyssssss

I have a project due Wednesday at 11:59 and I haven't started fun right

Anyways have a good day

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