I laid curled up into a ball on my fluffy grey cover.
Tears endlessly falling from my face
Flashback TW CHAPTER ABUSE/SELFHARM
"YOUR FUCKING USELESS MADDY , ALL YOU DO IS STAY IN YOUR ROOM AND ONLY COME OUT TO EAT" he screamed at me
"WELL MAYBE BECAUSE I HAVE AN ALCHOHALIC FATHER WHO CONSTANTLY BODY SHAMES ME AND TALKS BAD ABOUT ME FOR NO REASON" I screamed with tears running down my face.
"who the fuck your talking to ?" my dad said in an psychotic whispering voice as he slowly started walking towards me
"no , no dad please I'm sorry" I cried while backing up only to hit a wall behind me.
I had no where to run , hide , go
He then launched towards me full speed and showed no mercy.
He continuously slapped, punched , kicked , harmed me in ways I didn't even think where possible. He beat me until I was numb and no longer felt the pain.
"YOU FUCKING WHORE" he said as he got up and stormed out the house making sure to slam the door.
There I laid silently crying wishing everything would get better.
I always told myself
Everything will get better
Its gonna be ok
your ok
but it never happened.
I slowly get up to walk back to my room then that's when the pain hit me.
I grunt as limp to my bedroom and then into my connected bathroom.
I franticly searched cabinets and drawer under my bathroom sink looking for it.
When I found It I I felt some type of sick euphoria rush through my body.
I turn on the warm shower water as I slowly step in myself letting the warm water hit me body. I stared at the blade in my hand before making a deep cut onto my wrist next to me previous ones I've made. Tears escape my eyes as my body goes limp and I slowly slide onto the wall behind me.
when I was done with the shower I get out placing my blade back where I got in and getting onto some warm clothes. Long sleeves of course ,I couldn't bear seeing my cuts unless I were going to be adding one right next to them. I slowly walk towards my bed before flopping down onto it.
End of flashback
I continued to cry with quite noises escaping every few seconds.
I was interrupted by a small tap on my window.
No please not today.
Before I could even walk towards my window my phone goes off.
Tia <3
you gonna let me in or what?
I sighed turning off my phone and walking towards my window.
And there he was. My boyfriend standing at my window smiling at me like an idiot which caused me to smile. I opened to window allowing him to get in.
