My Testimonies and Learnings

Testimony#2

I know I'm not a perfect child, follower and friend. I still struggle everyday because of self-issues. I prayed to God that He will continue to discipline me kasi alam kong may mga taong nadidisappoint sakin and it creates a fire that separates me from people around me.

Monday night when I cried to God and prayed that He will continue to discipline me kasi I know na di pa ako fully equipped. Di pa ako fully grown up. I'm like a trainee; a baby. Marami pang makikitang mali sakin.

Then He heard my prayers. Ang amazing lang! He uses my tita to correct and discipline me. Nagkausap kami kagabi and I was blessed and my senses were opened. Oo, masakit na mapoint out ung pagkakamali at pagkukulang ko pero yon ang kailangan ko para matuto. For years of battling alone, self-centered ako and I dont care if people might be disappointed with me kasi iniisip ko na as long as I am doing the "right" thing sa paningin ko, pede ka magreklamo sakin pero di pa rin ako magbabago. Unless magbabago din ung trato mo sakin.

Hebrews 12:11, "No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it."

Sobrang sakit para sakin na isampal sakin yng pagkakamali ko. Dati iniiyak ko lang yon pero ngayon I realized iyon ung hinahanap ko. Correcting and guiding me are two of the necessary things that I need.

You know, the process of growing is a torture lalo if walang gumagabay sayo. Yes I have people to condemn me pero instead na i-take ko un positively, nagiging negative sakin ang impact. Nagiging defensive ako inwardly. Di ko nalang pinapansin or "bahala ka" nalang.

But then I learned that all my efforts of pleasing people dont give me a good feedback. Before talaga iba ung pag iisip ko. Pero ngayon, by the grace of God I am willing to be corrected, guided and disciplined. Step by step and I am starting today. Today is not yet too late para i-accept ung katotohanan na kulang pa ako sa disiplina sa sarili. Laban lang! Lahat ng pagtatama nila sakin ay para din sakin. Kasi who will guide me and correct me if not those people who genuinely love me?

I am (sinvalore) a recipient of God's love and discipline. All glory to Him!