My Testimonies and Learnings

Testimony #18

I grew up independently, and that means without my parents by my side. I grew up thinking I never needed anyone to survive, basta ba may nagpapaaral sa akin ayos na ako jan. I was not needy nor demanding from people who took the responsibility of nurturing me. It was enough for me. I had no choice anyway.

Pero iba 'yong habang lumalaki ka ang dami ring tanong sa isip mo:

Saan ako patungo?

Ano ba ang purpose ko?

Sino ba ako? 

Ano ba ang dapat kong gawin sa buhay ko?

Paano ba maging masaya?

I could recall nights of weeping and days of trying--trying to fulfill my life. Yet, none of these were enough. None of these were successful.

Then I realized, saan kaya ako pupulutin kung walang Diyos na nagmamahal sa akin? Saan kaya ako ngayon kung hindi lang ako inaalagaan ng Diyos? Napakabait po ng Panginoon sa buhay ko. Imagine at the age of 19 I learned to rebel against my aunt kasi akala ko mas masaya kung wala sila ng anak niya. Wala akong iniintindi kundi sarili ko at saan ako masaya. Pero mali pa rin ako. I was looking fulfillment in wrong places and wrong people.

And now seeing people who are lost, I want to introduce Jesus to them. How I really prayed they too will experience the love of God. Nakikita ko 'yong dating ako na palaging mag-isa, palaging galit, palaging emotional na parang walang patutunguhan ang buhay.

Sobrang nagpapasalamat ako sa Dios. Yes po totoo Siya at mahal Niya tayo! Only Him can satisfy us. Only Jesus can make us new. Only in Him we know what's our purpose in life, and that's to love Him, to serve and honor Him, and to make Him known sa lahat ng tao.

I am living in the grace of God. I pray you too will have a heart who seeks Him and will find Him.