My Testimonies and Learnings

Testimony #13

July 17 pagkauwi ko galing simba, nakaramdam na ako ng bigat sa katawan ko. Actually even during the Sunday service, masama na talaga ang katawan ko kasi 'di ako naligo that time tapos paglabas ko ng bahay ang init tapos sumakay ako ng sasakyan na de aircon. Doon pa lang naramdaman ko na na magkakasakit ako kasi 'yong iba na 'yong nararamdaman ng ilong ko. Ang lamig tapos galing pa ako sa labas na mainit.

Fast forward, pagdating ko sa bahay doon na talaga mas lumala pa 'yong sama ng pakiramdam ko. Noong gabing 'yon, nilagnat na talaga ako. And you know what I felt that night? I felt alone and helpless. That feeling na gusto kong inaalagaan ako pero wala. I was crying to God. I was desperate to God. I was complaining to God. 'Yong halos ayoko ng bumangon kasi 'di kaya ng mga paa ko. 

But praise God! Even though I was physically alone, alam kong emotionally and mentally lalo na spiritually hindi ako nag-iisa. I praise God for my partner na talagang concerned for me. He was calling me to make sure I was fine. He was literally far but I could feel his presence, his love and his heart na sobrang lapit lang sa'kin. And then I realized ganoon pala si Lord. Ganun pala ang love ni Lord para sa atin. Minsan akala natin walang nagmamahal sa atin. Akala natin walang pakialam si Lord sa atin pero magugulat nalang tayo He will send people to help us, to comfort us and for us to know that God never forgets us. That He loves us so much. That night I felt how lonely we can be kung walang nagmamahal sa atin. Kung wala si Lord sa buhay natin. My heart broke upon realizing those thoughts.

And that's when I know that true love really cares. Hindi puwedeng pababayaan lang natin ang mga taong mahal natin. God says He loves us and He proved it to us. Hindi Niya tayo pinapabayaan. Hanggang ngayon buhay pa rin tayo and it's all because of His grace and of His unfailing love. Hindi Niya tayo hahayaan na mag-isa, malungkot at walang direksyon sa buhay.

At napakahalaga na may taong nagpi-pray para sa atin. Mahalaga na may prayer buddy tayo-- accountability partner. Tumitibay tayo at tumitibay din ang ating relasyon sa kanila at sa Diyos. At dito rin pinakita ni Lord kung Sino talaga Siya. I prayed to God the following day. Sabi ko, "Lord, kailangan kong gumaling kasi walang mag-aalaga sa bahay kung may sakit ako." God knows the intention of my heart kung bakit kailangan ko ang lakas Niya at kailangan kong gumaling. And true enough, by the grace of God pinagaling Niya ako. Monday pa lang nakakakilos na ako nang maayos. In fact, nakapalengke ako that day tapos nagawa ko lahat ng dapat kong gawin.

Indeed, our God is a God who heals. God is a healer.

James 5:14-15

Is anyone among you sick? Let him call for the elders of the church, and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord. And the prayer of faith will save the sick, and the Lord will raise him up. And if he has committed sins, he will be forgiven.

My partner sent this bible verse to me and when I read this, I felt the healing power of the Lord. Gumaling po ako. And take note of this verse: the Lord will raise him up and if he has committed sins, he will be forgiven.

Hindi lang pala tayo pagagalingin ni Lord sa ating mga sakit pero patatawarin din tayo sa ating mga kasalanan. Grabe ang grace ni Lord, 'no? Hindi kayang tumbasan. Hindi kayang lamangan. I praise God that He cares for us. God loves us so much and He demonstrated it by giving us Jesus--who died for our sins but in three days He rose again. God proved how gracious He is that until now we are still alive.

This is one of the testimonies na 'di ko puwedeng ipagdamot because I want you to know that nothing is impossible with God. Ano man ang karamdaman mo ngayon, surely God will help you and will rescue you. God will heal you from all your sickness and He will forgive your sins. Kung kaya akong pagalingin ni Lord, kaya ka rin Niyang pagalingin. Just call upon Him and admit that you need Him. Hindi ka hihindian ni Lord. Surely He will listen to your cries and to your prayers.

God bless you and good night. To God be all the glory!